Letters to Niall

seven

dear niall,

i just want you to be here with me when i'm sad. i just want you to hold me and tell me everything is alright. or even tell me i'm beautiful when i need it the most. all i can do is dream about what we could be, but then i wake up from my dream and i'm back to reality...

a reality without you next to me. a reality where i feel sad almost every second of every day. a reality where people leave and people change. where they constantly try to pick up the broken parts, but only to have them thrown back onto the floor and shatter into billions of pieces.

just because we don't talk anymore, doesn't mean i've forgotten about you. it doesn't mean i no longer care. truth is, i still do. i do my best to check up on you, to see how you're doing. to see if you're okay, but every time i get the urge to talk to you, it suddenly hits me like that, we're strangers, you don't want me in your life, hence the reason why i'm no longer a part of you. but, even though everything's changed; i just want you to know that, i'm still here. i'll still be here for you. i'll still lend you my shoulders and ears. i don't care what time it is, what i'm doing. don't hesitate to talk to me, because half of the time, i wish that you were talking to me. i just really miss your presence, i miss you being my best friend, i just miss you in general.

do you think about me like i think about you? does my name cross your mind late at night when all you want to do is escape? do you wonder about how I'm doing or if I'm okay? do you contemplate calling me just to have my voice wash over you one more time?

all of these happen to me.
every one, as often as i breathe.
it's like a routine, one after another.
please tell me you do this too.

i miss you.

forever yours,
addison

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Have you guys heard infinity omfg.
I literally think they are trying to kill me.

I want to pre-order the album but I don't have any money :(

it's been a really long week so I'm sorry for not updating, but I said they would be kind of be slow updates.

I hope you all have an amazing day and I love you.

-em