Power of the Pum Pum (From Guns to God)

Chapter 4

Making it safe for a woman to love you is one of the best decisions a man can make. A woman who feels safe can light up a man's world for 100 lifetimes.

I watched as Tafari remove his slippers and placed his cell phone on my Chest of draws. He appeared cuter than ever in my semi-lit room. I sighed and he looked up. Gazed into my eyes as his mouth curled into a half-smile. Then he lifted his shirt and
removed a silver object from his waist. I looked closer and saw that it was a handgun.
"Scared of me?" he inquired and looked from me to the gun.

I shook my head. "Nope!" I admitted. I wasn't scared of him, I was scared of who I can be around him. I was scared of the parts of me that connected to the unrevealed parts of him.

He walked over to me and a beaming smile plastered his lips. Every ounce of consciousness slipped from my body when he held the nape of my neck. "Staciann" he whispered as he devoured my lips. I pulled away and grasp for air. Tafari knew how to suck my soul through my mouth.

"Why me?" He asked as his hand slipped from my neck. That was a rather non sequitur thing to ask but somehow I felt like it was sort of a way to let me in on his past.

I was right. Before I could respond, Tafari began to tell me about the parts of him that not many knew. I watched him closely as he speak. His face was filled with mixed emotions as he opens up to me about his past.

"People hate me but me nuh too watch that"
"Them fear me and that means them won't think to try hurt me"
"Not even know how you get me certain ways eno B cause man did promise himself that him never did ago get so close to no woman"
"Woman a wicked!"

I widen my eyes. He sat on the edge of my bed. I walked over to him, stand in front of him and place my arms around his neck. "It's okay, I won't hurt you"

"No B, you can never promise someone that"
" We don't know what's out there inna the future"
"You are an intelligent woman"
"I can't even dream of giving you the life you deserve and another man can"
"Do the maths"

I understood what he meant and even though I wanted to defend myself, he was right. Sometimes life takes unexpected turns.

"When I was too young to understand, my own mother left me with a bed, a table, and a fridge"
"I thought she would come back you nuh"
"Think she did just a punish me to mash up the TV remote"
"So me did a wait"
"Me wait fi bout a year before me finally realize that me on me own"

I ran my fingers through the top of his locks. Massage his roots as I waited for him to continue the story. He pulled me closer to him, pulled up my blouse, and kissed my lower belly. I exhaled loudly as his kiss sends electric waves through my body.

"So me start do weh every lonely man do"
"Me start look it in the streets"
"Father died little before she left and me remember one thing weh em tell me..."
"No make nobody walk over me no matter how unfortunate me be"

I pulled away and sat beside him. Still desiring more of his story.

"You feel me bad Staci?" he asked and turn to face me.

"No, I don't" I admitted. "I know that inside all of this is a sweet man"

Tafari chuckled. "Inside all of this?" he touched his chest, pulled up his shirt, and touched his abdomen. " You mean under my shirt?" he proceeded to unbuckle his pants, " Or you mean inside here so?"

I looked away and he laughed loudly.
"Shhhh, member you not suppose to me here Sir!"

"Continue the story, I wanna hear more" I pleaded. "I wanna know you more please"

"Me ago tell you man"
"Might affi go kill you after but..." He eyed me and chuckled when he saw the look of terror on my face. "Joking baby, I can't hurt you. Not even if I want to"
"Anyways, when I realize the gyal Lisa nah come back me decide to look for her"
"Me end up a country"
"one bag and little bit a money on me"
"When I found her, instead of greeting me she run me rass"
"say me come to mash up her life"