Please Remember Me

Chapter 8

"Before we get into what has distressed you so, I need to apologize. It has come to my attention that the text I sent about the diner get together may have been interpreted differently than I intended. I didn't want you to feel pressured by Gabriel and Sean. Having known them for so long, I understand how they can be. I simply wanted to allow you the opportunity to deny their invitation should you have been uncomfortable with it. I am sorry that it came off any other way."

Throughout his apology, Mr. Blackborne maintained eye contact with me dropping his shield. 

I was stunned at the true regret that showed in his steel eyes. 

Here was a man who exuded confidence and competence. One who I assumed had never had to say sorry for anything before, yet he was apologizing to me. It was easy to figure out that Victor had, at some point, had a discussion with Gabe and Sean. I wasn't even surprised they confronted Mr. Blackborne about it considering how close all of them are. 

I wanted to believe Mr. Blackborne was only apologizing out of duty to his family, who seemed to want me in their lives. 

That would be easy. 

However, the concern and regret that the closed off man allowed himself to display, made me think that Mr. Blackborne actually cared how I viewed him and his actions. He really wanted my forgiveness. 

I couldn't comprehend why.

"You have nothing to apologize for Mr. Blackborne. I'm sorry for misunderstanding and projecting my own insecurities on you. And I'm sorry for speaking about the issue with someone, who at the time, was a stranger to me. I should have privately discussed my concerns with you instead." 

I averted my eyes while speaking, staring into the steam rising from my coco.

"Tulip, look at me." 

His soft demand sent tingles up my spine. 

I was sure this man could command armies with a simple word and they would willingly, blindly follow. It was the first time he'd said my name without a qualifier at the beginning, too. I wanted him to never return to how he addressed me before this moment. 

I looked up into his eyes and was surprised to see understanding, and light anger, staring back at me.

"Yes, you should have come to me about your concerns. But, I am not blameless in this situation. I understand that, with those I am unfamiliar, I can come off as rude and disconnected. I am sure that's how you perceived me. That's probably why you took my text to mean what you assumed. I would appreciate your forgiveness on this matter. I want to note as well, that in the future, should you think I am pushing you in a direction you do not wish to travel, that you confront me. I promise to listen and address your concerns with honesty. I will not lie to you." His voice is strong, but remains calm. 

Those eyes were simmering; hands firmly clutching the mug in front of him. I took a long sip of my drink before feeling put together enough to respond without a stutter.

"I forgive you, of course, Mr. Blackborne. And I will work on my communication skills in the future. I promise." I was surprised at the strength of my own voice. 

The man sitting before me was the most intimidating member of his family I had met. If he ever directly requested me to stay away, I absolutely would. I had to trust that the man would keep his word; he would not lie to me. 

Keeping that in mind, I asked a question that I've wanted the answer to for a while now.

"Are you really okay with my presence in your family's life? I know you are saying I may have miss-perceived you. But I've been in plenty of situations in my life where I am not wanted. I know the signs...I just need to make sure, that at least for now, you don't mind that I befriend some of your brothers..."