I switch and turn trying to sleep my mind racing with mixed emotions and thoughts keeping me from sleeping. I get up grab my lighter and turn on the candle, I can't stand the darkness I don't feel safe I randomly feel a presence near me and it scares me.
I wonder why my life ended up to be this way what I did to deserve this life I just don't understand. Why do I feel this emptiness inside of me? Why do I keep trying? What's keeping me up at night? Oh yeah I forgot I keep all my problems and thoughts bottled up inside me because no one cares enough to notice I'm not okay, people say they care and listen but if that's true the would care enough to notice but they didn't.
What am I doing here all the pain and weakness suffocating me. Weren't we all born to die because at the end we all die. Then what difference would it be to just die now. my family, my so called friends, and my future that's what is holding me back into just ending it all because I can't bear the pain that someone else that I care would be in pain because of me.
I watch the time pass by knowing I have school tomorrow, almost the end of senior year. Also I have a future ahead of me, and once I have the chance to leave I will and I will run as far as I can to be happy and feel free.
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Weakness Comes Strength
Hayran Kurgu"why do I have this feeling inside me that I just want to cry all the time?? Before I couldn't cry no matter how much I wanted to but now if I hear or see something sad or meaningful it triggers something inside me. I don't get it before I felt stro...
