Alluring Gleam of Light (Scholar Series #2)

Chapter 30

"For Pete's sake, Jaile. This is your second call out because of that guy." Hellux sighed frustratedly, walking towards me after I exited the CJE Executive's Main office. "What happened? Ba't ka nagpa-apekto doon? Sa kanila?"

Sermon sa loob. Sermon na naman sa labas. Nice. Ang galing ko talaga.

I never thought I'd get scolded again because of Elizzer. And wow. He's with Hillary now. Pinagtutulungan talaga nila ako, huh? Is this his revenge?

I haven't met him for two years. After the day he pointed out my messy outfit, he never go to the agency again. And I was so thankful for that. Akala ko nga noon, nag-resign na siya sa Apparel since I know he's chasing another path, his another dream, but he's still there, huh?

"Mamaya na..." Pagod na bulong ko at nilagpasan si Hellux.

My mind is too clouded today. Hindi ko alam. Nagtipon-tipon lahat ng bigat sa akin nitong mga nagdaang Linggo. Pagod ako. Pagod na pagod ako.

What is wrong with what I did? I still couldn't get it. Ayaw niya ng may kapareho, hindi ba? The feeling is mutual! I just do what is right. And that is to throw away the only thing we have in common.

She's not the only one shocked by what we've witnessed here. I was not badly shocked but hurt too.

Whenever I fought back everytime they scrapped me first, I didn't always get the sympathy of the people. I'm always ruthless for them.

I should be the one to understand them. To longer my patience for them. Because I was trained. I was taught to act this way.

But he fucking lied to me. Paano ako kakalma sa photoshoot kanina? Nagtataka na tuloy ako. Nakakainis. Who was the first to receive a champagne gold handbag before? Was it me? Or it must be Hillary?

I instantly went inside the washroom and automatically locked the door.

I cannot contain my feelings. I cannot stand at all so my knees fell down the floor. Nanginig ang mga kamay ko sa inis.

With that, I failed suppressing my tears. Kaya ako nasinghalan ng management kasi nagwala raw ako sa harapan ng isang famous International model at ng isang huge businessman.

I am so exhausted. Dumagdag pa sila. I was not fully healed from my ankle injury when I fell down the stage. Hindi pa rin ako nakakapagpahinga sa sunod-sunod na concert namin. But I cannot blame that part. I must be thankful because it was from the support of millions of people I never expected to appear.

Third Year member of Fifth, we had our first South East Asia Tour. Fourth Year member of Fifth, our first ASIAN Tour. Honestly, we had it two times. And at the present time, my seventh year performing with those amazing girls, we conducted our last World Tour.

Kahapon lang, hangin ng Los Angeles ang hinihigop ko. I still have bad jet lag after that last trip overseas.

Pagod na pagod ako but nah! I won't admit that to myself! I still have a long way to go. I won't rest. This might be our last year as FIFTH. So I should enjoy this moment to the fullest because this is the felicitous period of my life where I cannot run back to again whenever I want to. This is just once in a lifetime.

After composing myself, I proceeded back to the dance studio. Naka-suot na rin ako ng dance outfit at pagpasok ko, nadatnan ko roon ang mga kasama kong babaeng pawis na pawis at mukhang may pinag-uusapan sila.

"Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God!"

"Anong meron mga teh?" I tried acting cool.

Immediately, they all looked at me. Sabay-sabay pa.