Never forgotten.

Chapter 18

I made sure to get there on time so frank doesn't get mad at me especially on this day. Where he will probably lose it if I was late I got there everybody was already there. All of our team were warming up and getting ready we were fifth to go next. I talked to Frank he was finally getting nervous but I know we can win. I talked to all of the team mates let's just say they were all freaking out. But as always I gave them the cheer quote "Never give up even if it get tough". It was time our team was called up it was Josh vs another boy who seemed very scary. Josh was the boy I trained hopefully I did a good job and frank will finally be happy with my work. Josh's match was intense but "Yayy" we won we did it frank was so happy he jumped with joy. Frank and all of the team jumped on top of him they were all so happy. We were officially champions all the work we did paid of that means I trained Josh good. I was so proud frank came towards me hugged me so tight and thanked me "I love you so much". OMG he said the three words we both stopped and thought about it but he the kissed me and said I really mean it. I was kind of shocked he said it first I thought I was going to be but no he actually cares. After all of this I decided to call Juan and Andy I needed to fix things. I mean I had not problem with Andy but I pushed him away after Juan amd I feel really bad for doing that. I called Juan he picked up I didn't know what to say or start saying. Hey I finally said something "Hey how are you" he asked, I'm good we just won championships but with that I relized I didn't have my ride or die to celebrate it with I answered. Yes I've been thinking a lot About you its been weird not talking to you everyday and telling you everything he said. What about your girlfriend she still hates me? I asked, We'll were still together and I really love her she means a lot to me. So that means I can't fix anything? I'll see you tomorrow at Starbucks around two make sure to be there he said. Yes I will be there see you tomorrow bye. Yes I feel so much better I'm happy I get to see Juan tomorrow and fix things I looked around for Frank he was nowhere to be found. I asked Josh at the after party they had for the team he said he didn't know. I called and texted him but he wasn't answering me all the calls went right to voice mail. I was getting worried but I was tired of waiting for him I decided to go home I was really tired. I got home for the first time vinnie wasn't there to ruin my night but now who ruined it was frank. How was I supposed to be ok when I didn't know if my boyfriend was ok. I went to room and directly fell asleep I was really tired plus I really wanted to see Juan and Andy they were the once I needed to talk to. When I woke up the next morning I had the worst headache in the entire world and it was already one in the afternoon. I had only one hour to get ready to see Juan and Andy Frank texted me and called me like thirteen times. But I didn't pick up I have to call him back to know what's going on. I began to get ready I was done and got in my car I called frank on my way to Starbucks.
"Hello" he answered

Hey what's going on with you?

I'm so hungover I got really bad last night celebrating the win and I don't remember what I did. Mhm well I'll see you later I said you called from your car where are heading? I'm going to go talk to Juan and Andy at Starbucks I answered. Why are you going with them? Because I need to fix things with them I'll talk to you later bye I said. I hung up and saw that Juan and Andy were already here I went in and saw them. Juan didn't bring sky with them and Andy was alone "Hey you guys" I said Hey beth. Well I wanted to talk to you guys and apologize for everything I did and said I didn't see how my problems were affecting you guys I said. We understand you have bipolar disorder and sometimes you don't take your pill but. Understand we will always be here for you no matter what Juan answered. I know but what about your girlfriend she hates me but I promise you I did it al for you so we wouldn't lose our friendship. But at the end I lost you guys and I miss you guys a lot I said with a shaky voice. They both turned and looked at each other we forgive you but you have to promise to always take your pill they both said. Yes I promise thank you so much I stood up and hugged them both, Bethany do you want to the movies on Friday night? Sure but what about sky? I asked She will just have to deal with it Andy answered. I didn't expect Andy to react like that but I agreed with him of course I did. I got a call from Frank telling me to go meet him at the wrestling gym so I had to leave Juan and Andy early. I drove to the gym and no one was there only Frank's car I was kind of confused. I went in and saw him he had a guilty look on his face I was beginning to get worried. Hey what's wrong? I asked Nothing he answered. Them why did you call me here? he was walking back and forth and was just continually moving. Can you just please stop playing games and tell me what's wrong? OK but please understand me and know I'm not doing this because I want to his voice was shaking and so was. Do what? I yelled, Ok it's been some time we've been together but I think I need my space and need to be alone for a while. What? I was so confused what did I do wrong was I not good enough? Was I to pushy? Or not on his level? Look I'm really sorry it's just for a short period of time I just need to clear my mind he said. Clear his mind of what? I don't understand this how? Why? would he do this to me. I didn't say anything after that I got up and walked out of the gym I couldn't stand anything another minute looking at him. How do you just tell someone you need space without an explanation? I knew I shouldn't have liked him I did so wrong I hurt myself I knew what was coming for me. But I still went and did it I'm so stupid. I drove home I couldn't stop crying and it was raining outside it felt like it was all planned out. I still can't understand or even think about this with a clear head. Just when you think everything is going great something always has to ruin it. I got home and went in my room I cried so much it's like all the pain I was feeling was just a repeat. I sat there not knowing how to understand what was going on why did he lie? You just don't leave me thinking and telling me you need space. I felt so stupid it was all my fault I'm not good enough I'm not at his level. I don't understand first it was Vinnie now frank am I ever going to be happy?