violet gallagher // shameless

15- you were my mother too!

ian and i stopped at sheila's house. lip was sitting on the porch, smoking a cigarette.

"what did you guys do?" he asked.

"we're coming from work. there was a shooting, mickey and kash" ian explained. i sat down next to lip, taking his cigarette and taking a drag.

"fuck, mickey shot kash?"

"other way round" i said.

"wait, what?!" he asked

" kash shot mickey in the leg. he's fine, just needed to get vi and me away before the cops came" ian said.

lip smiled. then we went silent for a second, me handing ian the smoke.

"what's up with monica?" i asked.

"well you know he way frank's a total fucking asshole?" lip asked.

"yeah" ian said, taking a drag.

"turns out he's the good one."

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we got up and walked into sheila's. lip on my right, ian on my left. we saw monica and frank shouting at each other. debbie, carl, fiona and liam were there as well.

monica turned around, when she heard us coming in.

"oh ian! and violet my sweetest!" she said. i just glared at her with a empty look, saying nothing. i was fighting not to cry. seeing her really cut deep.

"okay look, this reunion was bound to happen sooner or later. we wanted to talk to you about something" roberta said. she was monica's new girlfriend. hell she was weird.

"no! not now!" monica interrupted her.

"yes. now!" roberta said. "we want to take liam to come live with us."

no. my heart dropped.

"what?!" fiona stood up. i looked up at ian. he was looking worried.

"over my dead body!" frank yelled.

"how about moni signs whatever you need and then we take liam."

"done" frank said. the fuck was wrong with this man?!

"no fucking way! you can't have liam!" fiona shouted.

"why the hell not?! he's not even franks!" monica yelled back.

"fact is liam is black. all you white folks scooping up black babies like they're fashion accessories have a rude awakening coming!" roberta said. can she please shut the fuck up?! her voice was awful to hear.

"liam needs me. and we're taking him" monica went on.

"out of fucking question roberta!" lip yelled.

"roberta and i wanna start a family of our own." monica said. that's it. tears were falling down my cheek.
"well why don't you finish this one first?!" i shouted.

"they're taking liam!" debbie cried.

"NO!" everyone yelled. "no one's taking liam!" lip added.

"you don't get to abandon your kids and then show up one day to take your pick of the litter!"fiona said, going a step to monica.
frank stood up. "now that's not fair, your mother made mistakes, but-"

"shut the fuck up frank!" i shouted at him. and he did.

"this isn't about you!" fiona said to frank. 

"this is about you! this is about what you didn't do! it's about what i did. and you know what? i did a fucking great job!" she went on, turning to monica.
i saw how fiona's eyes filled with tears. i didn't fight mine back and just let them roll.

"debbie's class president, she's on the debate team, going to the nationals" fi pointed at debbie, then she turned to me and my brothers.

"lip, he's on top of his class, he set the curve! ian was promoted in ROTC and he tested out of english!" then she pointed at me.
"violet, she won the ice figure skating contest in her school! and carl made something blow up for his science fair!"
her voice raised.
"and you know what? they did it all!  no thanks to you, because YOU. WEREN'T. HERE!"

i cried so much now. ian put an arm around me, pulling me close. i cried into his shirt.

"i appreciate that fiona, but i'm here now... and liam belongs with me" monica said. she was crying as well.

"he doesn't even know who you are!" fiona shouted.

"i'm his mother!"

"you were my mother too!"
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"maybe i'll never be able to make things right with you, but there's still time with liam.. and debbie and carl," she said kneeling in front of my younger siblings. "i am so sorry if i hurt you. i love you so much, please let me be your mommy again."

what about fiona, lip, ian and me? we were just childs too! carl and debbie leaned forward to hug monica. how the fuck did they fall for her? it's so fucking obvious that she'll won't stay long to "be their mother" again.

"they're all yours now mom, good luck" fiona said, leaving sheila's house. i kept crying and i saw a tear in ian's face too. i went to hug him. what the fuck was going to happen now?!