Meant to be yours. Steve Harrington x Eddie Munson

Chapter 4- everyones an asshole

Eddie POV

Why would he say that? Why did I react like that? For fucks sake I new it was a bad idea to try and be friends with Steve Harrington.

Why did he say that of all things though, I know he doesn't like me, he would never like me, he was just trying to mess with me.

But if I had said yes would he have gone through with it? What would we be doing right now if we did?  It's not like I didn't want to kiss him, I did, but that's so much pressure, I haven't figured out how I feel yet, yes he's got, yes I love being around him but we've none each other less then 24 hours.

Ugh what's wrong with me?! I don't get obsessed over guys, I never have and I refuse to let Steve Harrington drive me insane cuz he crossed one line. That's it, I'll see him on Fridays if he wants to be in hellfire other then to at I'm cutting myself off from him, I know if I see him a lot I'll just fall for him and I don't have the right mindset to be in a relationship.

I put all my stuff away and see Steve's shirt on the floor, fuckin hell, I'll get dustin to give it back to him.

Over the weekend I mainly stay in my room as I do every weekend, I have band practice on Sunday but that only goes for a few hours.

Eventually the weekend ends and I have to go back to school, my car's still broken in the back car park cuz I can't fucking afford a mechanic

I get ready in the morning and walk to school, I get about 10 minutes before class, I decide to go check on my car and grab some stuff out of it. When I walk over to it I see Steve under the bonnet of my car doing something, he's shirtless and sweating and has some oil on his face and holy shit he's so hot and this is not at all what I need now.

"What are you doing Harrington?" I ask, as I open the back door and grab a few cigarettes from under the seat.

"Oh.Hey I got here a noticed your car was still here so I thought I'd try to fix it.." he says brushing some hair out of his face.

"Thanks but you don't need to do that" I grab his shirt out of my bags and chuck it at him "you left this at my place"

"Thanks.." he puts it with his other short "hey I'm really sorry about Saturday, that wasn't cool, and I know you're probably still upset but I hope we can be friends"

I walk up to him "you, Steve Harrington are a total asshole" I grab him and kiss him for a minute before pulling away "and I don't need you in my life" I light up my cigarette and walk away.

I need to fucking figure out how I feel about him, he's annoying and selfish but also kinda sweet and so hot. I just home kissing him wasn't a shitty thing to do, I just know if I didn't I would be thinking about it for weeks.

I get into class, I have an exam this period, it's my last one. The only class I need to pass before I can graduate next month. I take my seat and look at the test, I should have studied.

After the test the teacher collects them all. She said she'll mark mine now so I know if I passed or not. So while the rest of the class leaves I wait.

I wait about 20 minutes until she gets up and hands me the sheet "I'll see you again Wednesday." I look at the paper, 43%

Fuck. I grab the paper and storm out of the classroom, out of the school. I make my way to my car and run into Steve "Eddie I fixed you car-"

"Fuck off Harrington! I told you to leave me alone" I shove past him but he grabs by hand, taking the paper

"What's wrong? And that's this?" He looks at it but I snatch it away. "One bad grade isn't that bad, why are you so mad about it?"

"It's not just one fucking grade Harrington, it means if I blow the make up quiz on Wednesday I'm stuck in this hell hole another year and it's none of your fucking business!" I shove him away and walk to my car and lock the doors

I rip up the paper and throw it in the back then bang my head against the steering wheel. Why can't I just fucking pass this class.  I know I'm not smart but I didn't think I was a complete idiot.

I grab another cigarette then light it and start driving home, but I stop at the liquor store and grab two bottles of vodka.

When I get home i walk straight to my room and put in some music and open the bottle then start drinking. I ignore Wayne when he asks what I want for dinner

I ignore the phone ringing, I just drink and smoke and pray I'll start to feel numb. It takes a bottle and half and a few joints for it to start working.

After I have no idea how long someone comes into my room, I look at my door from where I'm half laying down on my bed with bottle next to me and a cigarette in hand.

"Eddie? Dustin said you're not answering any of your calls, he asked me to come make sure you're ok?" Steve says, I just roll my eyes

"Why wouldn't I be ok? It's not like I've failed another year of fucking school and I'm gonna have to do all this shit over and over for the rest of my fucking life" I say, moving the bottle around in my hand as I speak "I may as well just drop out and save the money for something actually worth while like getting a job, not that anyone would hire me cuz everyone in this town is a piece of shit"

"You're not gonna be in school forever, you still have a chance to pass this class on Wednesday, and I'm sure you could easily get a job if you try, if you put in some effort someone will hire you, not everyone is an asshole"

I just laugh "god Harrington they've got you fooled" I stand up "everyone in this stupid town is here because they belong, here, no one here is better then anyone else, everyone is an asshole and everything is shit, that's just the way it is"  I point the bottle at him "but you, you fucking asshole, you think you're better then everyone? You think just cuz you have pretty hair, just cuz you're hot you have the right to lead people on, or flirt with them for the sake of it? One day you're gonna have hit on everyone in this town and people will finally stop saying yes to you and when you do find who you want it's gonna be too late"

He looks at me "I'm sorry your life isn't great Eddie, I really wish I could make it better for you, but you know nothing about me, or anyone, some people are good, maybe I am an asshole but I'm not here to act like I'm better then you, I'm here because I care about you and whether you like it or not I like you, so maybe you're right about this place and about me but I've already found who I wanna be with, and it's your decision if it's too late or not"

What the fuck is he on about, why could I decide, I don't even really know what either of us are saying everything's getting mixed up, maybe it's the alcohol but all I know is I feel like I'm gonna be sick "Eddie? Do you get what I'm saying?" Steve ask I open my mouth to answer him but instead throw up all over his shoes then sit down cuz everything is spinning