Tw/ mentions of suicidal thoughts, mental illness.
Eddie POV
I sorted everything out with Wayne so now I'm back home living with him. And everything is perfect with me and Steve, now I just have to try to keep it perfect. I don't want anymore fights, I just want to be happy.
I'm a little scared about it but I think I'm gonna tell Steve how I've been feeling. I think he would wanna know, I know he can't fix it but he's always comforting and maybe that's all I need.
I'm going over to Steve's house tonight, I'll talk to him then. He's gonna pick me up and we're gonna order in dinner and watch a movie together, I'm so excited, I love spending time with him he's so fucking Amazing and I'm lucky he wants to be with me.
Soon I hear Steve's car outside so I walk out and get in the passenger seat, I'm still healing a bit from the attack but it's getting better, my stitches are out so now it's just occasionally painful. "Hey handsome" Steve says when he sees me and kisses my cheek
I smile "hey how was your day?" I ask, putting in my seatbelt and then crossing my legs. I don't know why but it's very comfy.
"A lot better now you're in it" he replies as he starts driving towards his house "I thought we could just order some pizza and watch a movie, I got one of those Star Wars movies you like"
"Oh sweet, which one?" I ask, honestly surprised he even knows what Star Wars is
"Uh.. the one with the guy holding the glowing stick on the cover" he replies. I take that back. He knows nothing about it.
When we get to his place we go straight up to his room "what kind of pizza do you want?" He asks, going to the phone as I put the VHS in the machine.
"I don't mind, you pick and I'll just share some of yours" I respond before going to one of his draws and getting out a jumper, he looks at me and laughs "what, it's cold what did you expect me to do?"
"You're so cute" he smiles then calls the pizza place and orders "ok it'll be here soon" he sits down next to me and wrap an arm around my shoulder.
"Cool..um I actually wanted to talk to you about something" I look at him, he looks concerned "um well I just want to be honest with you about how I feel so we're not like hiding things"
"What's up love.. you know you can tell me anything" he holds my hand
"I know.. you remember when we broke up? Well before dustin asked if i wanted To hang out I was thinking about doing something.. and that wasn't the first time I felt like that.. I guess it was just the first time I came really close to doing it.." he just looks at me completely lost "i was thinking about.. you know ending things. I know it's stupid but I've thought about more then I wish I did, and it's not just that.. so much of the time I just feel so lost and unmoved and it really just feels like there's no point to anything.. and when I hang out with you or the others it distracts me for the most part, but even with you guys I sometimes lose motivation to do anything or be anything.." I explain, looking at my hands.
"Oh.. Eddie I had no idea you felt that way I'm so sorry" I pulls me into his arms "is there anything I can do to help you or make you feel better?"
I shake my head "no all I want is you, I don't need you to do anything I just want to be with you, cuz you make me happy and you motivate me"
He doesn't move away even the slightest bit, "thank you for telling me.. if you want to see a professional or anything like that you can tell me and I can help you find something, or I'm always here to listen and comfort you"
I lean against his chest. This man is so so perfect "thank you.. you have no idea how much that means to me" I feel safe in his arms. He makes me feel better.
Steve POV
I wish I could somehow help eddie, make all his problems disappear. But I know I can't do the best I can do is be here for him and support him in every way. He's the most incredible person and I hate that he doesn't feel that. It's not fair
So for the rest of the night I just hold him as we watch the movie and eat. I check in on him but not too much so he doesn't get uncomfortable. And after the movie things got a little..More mature. And although that I tried to remind him how perfect his is, even though I was a little preoccupied and he kept blushing and telling me to stop complimenting him, but in a cute way. Cuz everything he does is cute
I love him more then anything in his world, I would marry him if i could. Oh yeah it's bullshit that I'm not allowed to marry him. But I can live with it, because whether it's legally binding or not I will vow to love him for the rest of my life.
A/N: thank y'all so much for reading. If you life it I have another Steve x eddie fanfic that's a bit longer or I will be starting another one with Eddie as a vampire if you like that kind of AU. Thank you xx
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Meant to be yours. Steve Harrington x Eddie Munson
Fiksi PenggemarA lot of angst probably. Eddie is in his last year of school, he is the leader of Hellfire, he's openly Gay and pronouns are He/Him. He lives with his uncle Wayne and doesn't go out much except for Hellfire and Corroded Coffin. Steve Is working at f...
