Sweet Blissful Hell (Hawks x Reader x Dabi)

Chapter 44 (Bad ending)

TW: mention of suicide, death, abuse and blood. I'm sorry in advance.

---------------------------------

"The dog or your friend."

Those words rang in your head for what felt like eternity, the cocking of the gun not even registering to your ears. You couldn't hear the voice over the intercom anymore, it was all white noise now.

The choice was impossible, how could you choose between the best pet that had been by your side for years, through thick and thin, or your best friend who had kept you safe and made you realise you were worth more than all the crystals and diamonds in the world...

You couldn't see anything through the tears blurring your vision, all you could feel was Mochi's fur and her slow breathing. It felt like years while trying to figure out what the hell to do. There was no choosing between them, they were asking the impossible but then you heard it, the count down, forcing your hand to make a choice.

"5" Came the voice over the intercoms.

"Wait! Please just wait!" You pleaded.

"4"

"I'll do anything I swear! Just please don't make me choose!"

"3" The countdown kept coming, nothing you could say would make them stop. 

"I promise I'll be your puppet! I'll even kill, just please stop!" You screamed out, head falling into Mochi's soft fur, feeling her breath faltering more, her heart felt weaker than before.

"2" There was no quick solution in this scenario, no talking your way out of it like you had managed in the past, no one to rescue you.

"Y/N, it's okay" You looked up to see Celine, she smiled sweetly and coughed, blood spilling from her lips.

"1" came the intercom. Your eyes widdened as you heard the gunshot ring through your ears, you saw the events unfurl in front of your eyes. The horror of watching as they shot your best friend in the head, you felt something warm splatter on your face, gingerly reaching up o touch it to see it was blood. Celine's blood was on your face. 

"We warned you L/N" Just as you realised what had happened you quickly looked down at Mochi, her little chest no longer heaving with difficult breaths. You screamed as loud as you could till your voice couldn't be heard anymore. Guards came along and tried to force you to your feet, you were weak but still fought back as much as you could, you couldn't leave Mochi or Celine like that.

As they pulled you up, Mochi's lifeless body fell from your lap and landed at Celine's feet. They dragged you fighting the whole way as you saw what they did next, it broke your spirit.

They were throwing a clear liquid onto both the bodies.

A match was lit.

You screamed again but to no avail, you tried to fight your way back to them.

The match was flicked in the air and landed on the floor next to Mochi.

They were both engulfed in flames in a matter of seconds.

That was the last thing before you were knocked unconscious.

--------------------------------------------

You never heard what happened to Keigo and never saw him again, no one knew where the number 2 pro hero had gone, just that the Commission had 'sent him on a mission over seas'.

Dabi was never heard from again, any League activity that was broadcast had no mention of the black haired fire quirk user.

Mirko had moved up the ranks due to there being no Hawks but she was never the same, like she had to walk on egg shells any time there was another hero, she was never aloud to address the press without instruction either.

Toga had been found and placed under arrest in Tartarus, when she was found she didn't seem like her usual self, she was scared and cowered at anyone who came near her.

Life for you was hell for the rest of your miserable life. You were stuck in a pitiful cell, most days were spent strapped to a chair, they used your quirk as much as possible and found they could fuse your incredible healing ability with your blood. It took years of gruelling experiments before they perfected it and sent it out to the battlefields. 

Your washed out complexion mirrored the abuse you now suffered at the hands of the Commission. No real food ever entered your room, just a glass of the most hideous looking liquid you had ever seen, they told you it was all you needed to keep you alive and that's all they did. Kept you alive.

You had tried so many times in the beginning to end everything but as time went on they took more and more from your room till it came to this. The room had nothing but a slab for a mattress, no pillow or blanket. The only time you were let out was to go to the laboratory so they could continue to experiment and use you as a lab rat.

The years of abuse took their toll till you became nothing but a husk of your former self. You complied with everything and no longer felt pain due to a drug they trailed on you and deemed 'unfit' for front line heroes.

This was your life until you died 35 years after that fateful day you watched your friend be murdered and your dog die in your arms.

It was a peaceful death, dying as you were lied down on the slab once more and left for the night. Your eyes closed and your last breath rushed out. 

There was light, a bright white light, it was too far but you ran, you didn't want to let it go, it felt warm, the closer you got to it you could feel the cold of the slab wash away. Feeling returned to your body as you felt calmer than you ever had, reaching out for the light; your tattered lab gown flew off, leaving you in your jeans and hoodie once more.

You stumbled through the dark and burst through into the light, you looked about to the vast emptiness, it was really strange, where the hell where you? Then you heard it, the sound started as a whisper but grew to a powerful voice.

"Y/N!" You turned on your heel to see Celine, Mochi running to you and jumping, barking as if begging to be held. You swooped down and scooped up the ball of fluff, holding her so close to your chest as tears fell from your eyes with no warning, you looked up to see Keigo and Dabi next to your best friend.

"Guys!" You screamed, running over to them, Mochi jumped from your arms and ran by your side, you embraced them all and suddenly, colour filled the empty void, filling your heart once more. You all buckled under the immense weight of emotion, you could feel their arms tight in your body and Keigo's wings wrapping around you all with Mochi jumping into the cuddle.

You could stay there with them forever, so you did.