True Happiness

6.

Friday 10:45 am

Neveah
I walked into my therapist office and sat down on the couch that was across from her. I'm nervous about being here since my relapse a couple days ago.

"Catch me up on your life Neveah?"

"Well on my 25th birthday my mom was released from prison."

"And how did that make you feel?"

"Happy and sad."

"Explain."

"Happy because after her being in jail for something she didn't do she's finally free and can be in my life all over again and that we can make new memories. And sad because she missed out on a lot of my major accomplishments and that's something she nor I can get back."

Dr. Thompson nodded and wrote down what I said.

"When your mom called she didn't go into details about what happened but she said that you relapsed and I needed to see you as soon as possible. Are you comfortable to talk about what happened?"

I looked down and started to pick at my fingers.

"Take your time Neveah there's no rush."

I nodded and looked back up at her I let out a breath.

"Me and Asia were talking about all of the gifts that Jaiden sent me and why he get me a lot of gifts every year for my birthday then our employees started to show up so we gathered all of my gifts and took them to my office. The receptionist came to my office and told me that my father was there to see me and instantly my heart dropped. Because I haven't seen him in 9 years and I've been happy and living my life then all of a sudden he wants to pop up."

"Take a moment breathe and when you're ready continue on."

I nodded and took a breath.

"Asia told the receptionist to call the police then after a few minutes we heard his voice like he was either getting closer or yelling so Asia instructed me to go to my personal bathroom and lock myself in until she came and got me. I did that and I sat on the floor for a few minutes and cried then I walked out of the bathroom and got the bathroom key and went back and locked myself in the bathroom. Everything that happened to me from age 5-16 started to flood my brain and I had a breakdown I found my old blade that I never used and started cutting then I took some pills that I had and laid on the floor hoping that I ended my life."

"And I know that you're probably thinking that she's crazy for ruining all of the hard work we did to make me not relapse."

"Absolutely not it's okay Neveah the only thing we need to do now is reroute you and get you to the point where he no longer have that effect over you."

"Okay."

"But before we get into that did you ever tell Jaiden?"

"I didn't tell him until we had our alone time in the hospital."

"That's good."

"Yeah."

"What's wrong?"

"He's still interested in me I find it strange because I been through so much and yet he still wants to pursue a relationship with me."

"And how do that make you feel?"

"Scared."

"Why?"

"I feel like he's going to hurt me all the years that I've known him he never dated a woman like me."

"So he has a preference?"

"Yes and I don't fall into that category but yet he still wants me and he's not giving up on me."