The Not-so Regular

Chapter 19

A hold on my hand, I was shaken to eternity. His words in my head are puzzle to understand.

Bit by bit, I was turning crazy.

I stared into our hand in the air, feeling my heart beating to death. The silly warmth travelling from his skin to mine is drastically disturbing.

Hindi ako mapakali.

What is he doing?

What am I feeling?

Bakit ganito na 'to? Kailan pa 'to?

Sinubukan kong bawiin ang kamay ko. He hissed right on my ear.

And hell again.

Ramdam ko kung paano umakyat ang kilabot mula sa talampakan hanggang sa pisngi nang pumasok sa tenga ko ang hininga niya.

I wanna run!

Palagi kong gustong tumakbo sa tuwing nako-corner ako ng utak ko sa mga ganitong tanong. Sa tuwing nakakaramdam ako ng ganito at ayaw kong sagutin.

"Still... baby..." he whispered when I tried to scoot.

Baby!

Tangina, kailan ba siya titigil diyan!?

"You're drunk, Kendrick."

"I'm not..." he answered breathy. Tumagilid siya at humarap sa akin, nahigit ko nang matindi ang hininga.

He levelled his face to mine and there's like a few centimeters space between our faces.

And when his eyes looked into mine, l lost my ability to think. I just stared right into his eyes, staring into mine deeply, feeling my nervous heart.

"Do I need a shave?"

I looked into his jaw before shaking my head. The stubbles he has are like days old. Rough but hot.

Ugh!

Iyan, sige. Itulak pa lalo ang sarili sa kapahamakan.

"Not yet?" he asked before placing my hand into his jaw, I trembled.

And I swear to God, I had stopped breathing. My heart booming, slowly getting out of my ribcage.

Napakurap-kurap ako ng ilang beses, hindi makapaniwala. He guided my hand into a slow carress on his jaw.

Ang utak ko nama'y kung saan-saan lumalayag. Feeling his rough palm at the back of my hand. Feeling his rough jaw on my palm.

I could die without words.

"Do you think it'll be nice to cut my hair?"

Nanlaki ang mata ko sa tanong niya. "Why would you cut your hair!?"

"Do you like my hair?"

And did he answer me with question too?

Sayang naman ang pag-aalaga niya sa buhok kung puputulin lang.

"Oo naman."

He smiled a bit. "Which do you prefer. Hair long or short?"

"Sa'yo?"

"Oo... oo naman, sakin lang."

"I haven't see you in short hair... only in pictures." and you look damn hot on that too.

Err. Effing hot, Kendrick!

"I'll cut it if you like it short."

My brows furrowed. "Cut it if you like! Dinadamay mo pa ako."

"I shaved because you bought me razor."

Ano... Ano daw?

He what?