Over The Bridge

🧷 VIII

They ended up building a nice starter house, complete with decorations even. Yeonjun's attention was taken away when his mom called him. Yeonjun quickly answered it and Beomgyu seemed to ignore it.

"Why don't you come back Junnie?"

"Why? Just so I can get beat by dad?"

"I miss you and I've been so worried since you left so suddenly."

"I miss you too, but I'm actually happy. Not having all the reminders of Arin around and just being with Beomgyu makes me feel like everything is alright again..." Beomgyu looked over at Yeonjun and had a look on his face that read "really? like you're being serious?"

"Oh.? I heard what happened between you and him earlier, and what about that other boy Taehyun?"

"It's complicated. I really have no idea what's going on with us anymore."

"You and Taehyun would be a cute couple, or you and Beomgyu but I know that wouldn't happen,"

Yeonjun sighed. "Really? I'm worried if dad knows I like a guy he'd beat me let alone date one. He already beats me enough,"

"I'm trying to get him arrested for assault right now. If I go through the security camera footage from a few nights ago I'm sure I can find it."

Yeonjun panicked and I mean he fucking panicked. He forgot about the cameras, one outside each room. You would see him sneaking Soobin in. "There's no need for that because remember how a while ago I was filming a dance video and he just came in my room and beat me for 'being too loud'? I still have the footage, I obviously didn't post it though. If I find it I could send it to you through email,"

"That would work, anyway I should probably go and make dinner, I just wanted to make sure you were alright,"

"I understand mom, I love you,"

"I love you too sweetie, bye,"

"Bye," Yeonjun hung up and went back to playing minecraft with Beomgyu.

"Did you really mean it when you said you are happy with me?"

"Of course I did, you know you're part of the reason I'm still sitting here."

Beomgyu smiled and decided not to say anything else.

They continued with what they were doing until they got bored, Yeonjun left the game and turned his phone off, he laid on Beomgyu and reached up to grab his hand.

"One second Junnie," Beomgyu said as he was quickly finishing making a farm. Beomgyu ran out of materials so he turned it off and put his phone down. He grabbed Yeonjun's hand and shifted so Yeonjun was laying with his back against his chest and Beomgyu rested his head on top of Yeonjun's.

Beomgyu started to wonder how Yeonjun could still act like this around him, even though Yeonjun really got rejected and he saw it coming, only a few hours ago and lay here and acted like nothing was wrong. I mean maybe it was the cuts that made Yeonjun forget the pain, even if it was temporary relief. Beomgyu decided not to actually question Yeonjun about it since it might bring up things Yeonjun doesn't want to talk about or think of.

After a while of just laying in silence, Beomgyu had thought Yeonjun had fallen asleep. But Beomgyu was mistaken when he heard Yeonjun ask him something.

"How would you be without me..?"

"...Lost, lonely, depressed... Why do you ask?"

"Because I want to end it all so fucking bad. But I don't wanna hurt you or anybody else..."

Beomgyu wanted to tell Yeonjun just that his cutting was hurting him. He wanted to tell him that when he talked about ending it, it hurt him. But he was scared that if he said something it would make him feel bad and cut even more and possibly try to commit.

"I'm listening, you can talk to me..."

" The temptation to empty all the pill bottles, jump off a roof, or a bridge, hang myself, slit my throat, or even just blow my brains out is so damn strong."

"..."

"I mean sure it hurts to lose somebody but you'll find ways to cope and I'll finally get to be happy again...truly happy..."

"..."

"The only reason I haven't is because of my mom, you, Taehyun, Kai, Soobin, and your mom,"

"..."

"I don't want you to go through the pain we all went through when Arin killed herself again but I don't want to be in pain anymore..."

Beomgyu looked down at Yeonjun and saw he was crying again. Beomgyu took his other hand in which he wasn't holding Yeonjun's hand, he wiped his tears with his sleeve.

"All I ask of you is just to not end up like Arin, there's other answers, suicide isnt the only option..."

...

"JUNNIE NO!!"

Beomgyu watched in complete shock as he saw Yeonjun jump from the very same bridge Arin did just 3 years ago.

His mom was on the ground sobbing, while his dad had this sick smile on his face. Beomgyu's mom was holding Beomgyu back from running up to the edge and possibly jumping too.

Taehyun completely broke at that moment. He was being held by his sister and her girlfriend.

Beomgyu remembers reading a text from Yeonjun.

I can't fucking do this anymore. I say this alot but I really can't. I'm sorry Gyu. I hate to put you through this pain again. I miss her and I'd finally get to see her again. I love you Beomgyu, I really do. Please tell my mom I love her. I can't bare to send her a text. I'm so sorry it has to end like this Gyu.

Beomgyu woke up, he was crying. He couldn't breathe. He wasn't sure when he fell asleep but he was relieved to feel Yeonjun's weight on him, and heard his calm breathing. He didn't want to wake Yeonjun, so he wiped his own face and laid back down to try and sleep again.

It was Beomgyu's job to keep Yeonjun safe. Arin had told him that a few days before she ended it all. It had all stuck with him and he's been trying. He's talked him out of suicide a few times already and has had to clean up his cuts and cover them so they didnt get infected. He always listened to Yeonjun and was his shoulder to cry on. Even with Beomgyu having to reject Yeonjun, he hoped it wouldn't change anything drastically. Things couldn't change drastically because how would he keep him safe?

Beomgyu just couldn't sleep so he decided to see if there was a video of Yeonjun from the party somewhere on the internet and if there was, he knew how he could delete it. So he obviously started looking on his phone and there was just a few seconds of Yeonjun at the party, it was him on Soobin's lap. Beomgyu was able to report this one for child pornography and his reason was they're both underage. Since the video had less than 100 views and all the comments were saying that it wasn't Yeonjun, he figured they would be fine, until another video was found. Beomgyu would also go into Yeonjun's comments and report some of the hate comments just so he didn't have to see them.

After knowing that Yeonjun's reputation wasn't ruined, Beomgyu felt a bit more relaxed and now tried to sleep again. He shifted his and Yeonjun's position while trying not to hurt Yeonjun from his cuts and trying not to wake him up. Beomgyu changed the way they were laying so they were both on their sides and he knew Yeonjun would cut on his legs if he did it on his arms and stomach. Beomgyu felt Yeonjun shift so he was closer to him. Beomgyu put his arms around Yeonjun's waist while Yeonjun's arms were around his neck.