indigo's pov
i woke up with blood shot eyes and messy hair. i looked over and saw mom was sleeping. it was almost night. i needed to get out.
i quietly left the room and walked around til i saw the stairs to the roof.
i walked up slowly and sat down on the edge and plugged in my earphones and listened to music at full volume.
all of a sudden i felt two arms wrap around me and i screamed.
"what the fuck!" i yelled as i fell backwards with the person behind me.
"what the hell were you thinking? why were you sitting up there?" luke asked firmly.
"i was getting fresh air. i wasn't going to kill myself." i spoke with a glare.
"are you sure? maybe ash needs to do a psych eval just to be safe." luke spoke softly.
"no! i'm fine. i was sitting up there listening to music to clear my mind. not everyone who sits on a roof top is considering suicide." i spoke firmly.
"everyone who sits on the edge of a roof top is considering something babe." luke spoke sadly.
i stared at him silently before clearing my throat, "i'm fine, just leave me be."
"let's go down please. just speak to ash please indigo. don't be difficult." luke pleaded as he grabbed my arm and began to drag me.
i willingly went. i wasn't going to commit suicide. at least, i think it wasn't going to commit suicide.
we walked down the stair entrance and luke paused to page ashton.
"how did you even know i went up there?" i asked.
"i saw you and it worried me because the majority of the people i know who've gone up to the rooftops wanted to end their lives." luke spoke as he put his pager back.
we stood there for a couple moments in silence before he took out his phone to answer a phone call.
i slowly and quietly walked away when he turned his back and ran for it once i was beyond the wall.
i ran into mom's room and saw her sit up suddenly.
"baby? what's wrong?" she asked.
"they're trying to give me a psych eval for going up to the room and sitting there. i'm not suicidal mom. you know that." i whispered as i hid under the bed.
"indig- "hey barbra, have you seen indigo? she fucking disappeared while i was on the phone. she was up on the roof and i would feel a bit more comfortable if she talked to ash to clear stuff up before we left." luke spoke.
"wait what? is she okay? i haven't seen her." mom spoke pretending to act panicked.
"fuck me, i lost her again. just let me know if she comes around." luke stressed as he left the room.
"you can come out now and be ready to explain all of this." mom spoke firmly.
i slowly snuck out and sat down next to the bed.
"i wasn't going to kill myself, but he wouldn't believe me. all i wanted to do was get fresh air and listen to music. i was listening to freaking teenage dirtbag." i spoke with a slight eye roll.
"well, okay, i believe you. lesson learned, don't sit on a hospital roof." mom spoke softly as she laid back down.
"i don't want to do a psych eval though." i spoke softly.
"why? if you really weren't considering suicide then what's the problem?" mom asked.
"the problem is that i can't lie. i-i wait nevermind just i don't want to do it." i spoke quickly.
"you don't seem very convincing or believable." mom spoke.
"please just get me out of it." i begged.
"fine." mom replied after a couple minutes.
she called luke and he came running up.
"she told me what happened. i don't think she needs a psych eval. let her be." mom spoke simply.
luke gave her a 'what the hell' look before nodding slowly.
i left the room with luke after saying goodbye to mom.
we walked downstairs and saw ashton.
"hey? what was the page for?" he asked.
"i'll tell you later." luke spoke blandly as we walked to meet calum and michael by the car.
the drive home was completely silent and as soon as we arrived, i ran upstairs and laid in my bed. i was done with today.
i heard a soft knock on the door and saw ashton standing there.
"i haven't spoken to luke yet, but i have a feeling the psych call was for you." ashton spoke softly.
"i-i can't explain. i didn't want to kill myself in that moment but when i thought more about it the idea didn't seem that bad." i spoke softly.
ashton softly sat down on the edge of my bed.
"tell me more."
