Ghost of You ♡ LRH

32 - Fix You

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Fix You – Coldplay

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Luke

Having to listen to what my girl went through was one of the toughest things that I have ever had to sit through. Knowing there was not a damn thing that I could do to help ease her pain was insufferable. She truly is the strongest person that I have ever known. I hate that she had to go through all of that pain alone. I should have been there for her through it but I wasn't.

"That's truly heartbreaking Aria, I am really sorry to hear that." Zach said with a sympathetic smile. She gave him back a small smile. Her eyes were slightly puffy from the tears that she shed. I wanted nothing more than to whisk her away and shower her in all of my love. I wanted to do anything that would get her mind off of what she just told the world. "So Luke, how did you react to the news?"

I stiffened in the chair. Aria's thumb drew circles on the top of my hand which helped ease the tension. "Well, it was the worst thing that I think could have ever happened to me." I paused to gather up what courage that I could. Aria smiled up at me which made me feel like I could take on the world with no fear.

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9 Years Ago

London is colder than I expected. We touched down not long ago, all of us, except mom, were widely underdressed. The bitter wind did little to distract from the gaping hole in my heart. It felt wrong to be here without Aria. She has been by my side through everything, hell I wouldn't even be here with the band if it wasn't for her.

The entire ride to the house we were staying at, we were glued to the windows. I wanted to be excited to be here, I really did but I just couldn't. My phone sat in my hand...with no new messages. It's not like Aria to not respond to me. There was a sinking feeling in my stomach that something was wrong. "Stop pouting Luke, we are in London!" Ashton tried to lighten the mood. I plastered on a fake smile so they would leave me alone for a while. Every few moments I would check my phone, hoping that a message would come through. Nothing.

We arrived at the house we were staying in. The rest of the boys piled in the house, joking and smiling. "Cheer up darling," mom said, coming to stand by my side. "I know you miss her but it's not forever. We will go home where you can see her and she can always come visit too."

"I know that mom, it just doesn't feel right without her by my side. She has been with me through everything." The warmth enveloped us as we walked in the door.

"I know. She is so proud of you though, remember that. You have an important job while we are here." Job? "You have to go out and live your dream. That's all she has ever wanted for you. Don't let her down."

A newfound feeling of confidence and excitement ran through me. If I only make one person proud, I want it to be Aria. I am going to do everything in my power to make her proud. But there was still this nagging feeling of dread in my stomach. Something in me made me feel like that goodbye at the airport was our final goodbye.

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Three Months Later

It's been three months since I've heard from Aria. Mom said it was due to me having to get a new phone in London. It has really sucked not being able to talk to her every day. I want to tell her all about how the album is coming along and just everything.