The Thorn To My Rose

Promise Me

Lina's POV

Push her away. Make her hate you. Make her hate you to a point where she does not want anything to do with you. Was all I could do. My baby, My beautiful little girl. Even though you are not so little anymore and you are growing into a independent woman, you will always be my little girl. I can't reveal what happened in New York. I know what I am doing is unforgivable and even though it breaks my heart every time I hear your cries from your bedroom. The look of your heart breaking every time I say something hurtful, My beautiful Sayuri , my Rosie. my best friend and my whole reason for living. Mommy is so sorry for hurting you. But for your safety I cannot let you in. I won't allow it. I will not let you carry the burden of my sins. I know you will hate me and I do and will not blame you if you want nothing to do with me ever again. Right now at this moment I think it would be better if you just carry on hating me. Slowly detach from me. Pretend you never had a terrible mother like me. I hope you never get this letter just know that I love you so much and every time I made you cry I wanted to die. I would go into my room and silently cry and pray that god can ease this pain. I want to let you know that I have never stopped loving you. You are my whole world and I would never ever take you for granted. I know it means nothing to you right now but my love for you will never fade. until I draw my last breath I will always love you. I will let you know what is happening when the time is right. hopefully it will be over by then. If not, just remember that I will do everything in my power to make sure that you are safe. Even if it means I won't be here. I have gone to settle business. I hope to come back to you like the same mom that you had before New York. I will do everything I can to make sure I come back to you and dad and Aiden. But mostly you my love. Please don't look for me, Tell dad not to worry, but until then this is all I can say to you. I love you more than I love my life.

with love

Mommy.

I finished sealing the letter and left it in her favorite book that I used to read her as she was growing up. Feeling the hardcover my fingers grazed the title. I saw a picture of me and Rosie when she was still a little girl, the picture was taken by Tyler when we had ditched school to go for our infamous monthly picnic even before we had started dating. If there was someone who I knew loved Rosie just as much as I do if not more, it would be him. I wiped the tears that have clouded my vision. I slipped the picture out from the frame and placed it in my pocket. With my luggage in one hand and my boarding pass in the other. I looked back into my daughters room and soaked up the last image I would have. With a heavy heart I tread lightly out the door, the cold air hitting me instantly, I calmly walked into the car and drove away. Tears still running down my face as I leave the neighborhood that I had raised my kids and shared many wonderful beautiful memories with my ever doting husband.

" Please remember the love I have for you. God give me strength." I whispered as I made my long heart wrenching journey to the airport.

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Rosie's POV:

I have been so stressed lately. Ever since I moved in with dad and the whole scene that I had with Aaron at the rooftop. I hate to admit that I have been ignoring Aaron like the plague. The way he looked at me with such expecting eyes. I couldn't crush his dreams. I know this is the wrong way to go but I can't find myself committing to him. I don't even know what I want with my life. What I want to do. I loved him of course but I didn't want the domestic lifestyle. I always envisioned my life doing something bigger. Makings a name for myself.

Not just someone who was born with a silver spoon and had a big company handed to her.

I could not find my AP history textbook anywhere in my room or in my bag so I paced around my room trying to retrace my steps.