The break | Wednesday + Xavier

Chapter 20 - True Love

Wednesday's POV

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It's the first week into Christmas break. All i've done is stay in my room and write. Occasionally i'll walk around the house. Looking at the graveyard, and the ballroom. All the places I shared specials moments with Xavier. My Xavier. But he's not mine anymore.

I don't get why I have to ruin everything, maybe I become distant when I realise it could actually work out. Maybe I like pain. Ok I most defiantly like pain but not in my heart. Not when I can feel it but I can't see it.

I'm not even happy when I torture Pugsley with traps.

I sometimes walk past the painting room. Seeing the paintings Xavier made when he was here. Today I decided to walk in.
I looked around and saw paintings of me. It was like I was looking in the mirror. How did I not notice these before? He picked up every detail of me. He didn't change a thing.
Speaking of Thing, he jumped up on a table.

Why did you end such a beautiful thing.

"Because Thing, I didn't want him to end up getting hurt." I replied.

All you did was hurt him. You started the thing you tried to stop.

He had a point. But I didn't want to hear it so I went back to my room, slamming the door.
I was still writing about Viper. Robert had just left her and she felt lost. She hadn't bothered continuing her investigation and instead found herself eating lollies and crying every night. To clarify, I did not do this every night, only every second night.

I skipped most meals, only coming out when I was desperately starving. I tried to have more visions by touching everyone of Xavier's paintings. Seeing if a vision of him will come to me. But nothing did.

I was desperate for him to text me. I looked at my phone every ten minutes. Distracting myself by texting Enid and even Ajax. It didn't work.

So here I am. Sitting on my bed looking out my window. At the rain falling down. There is only 2 more days until it starts snowing. Then Christmas season will begin.
I hate how everyone becomes so cheerful and happy. There is nothing to be happy about. And those songs, they make me want to vomit.

My thoughts were distracted by a knock on the door. My mother entered.
"Wednesday, I'm worried about you. Ever since you and Xavier broke up you haven't been you." She said sitting on my bed.
"Really? Because I feel more like myself then ever." I replied sarcastically.

"You think love makes you weak?" She asked.
"Of course it does, it weighs you down since you have to give all your attention to this one person" I argued.

"Tell me, this semester, when you were dating Xavier how did you manage to solve a case if all your attention was on him?" She had a point, one I couldn't beat, so I stayed silent.

"True love is sharing infinite emotions, whether its bad or good. Love gives you strength darling. It makes you realise things about yourself you can't realise alone. And to not love simply because you think you can't. Is a waste."
She replied kissing my forehead and walking out of my room leaving me with my thoughts.

I spent all night turning in my bed trying to sleep. But what my mother said stuck with me. Can I really love?

I find it impossible that love gives you strength. I went back and looked at the memories of Xavier. The laughs we shared, the smiles, how I hung out with Enid, Ajax and him. I went on my phone and looked at all the pictures we took together.
He made me a normal teenager but still gave me the... strength to solve the case. He didn't change me he just... loved me. He risked his life for me because he cared not because he was using me.

I made a mistake. A big mistake.

All because I thought I couldn't love but I could. With him.
I jumped out of bed. I put on my oversized hoodie and I ran downstairs calling Lurch. He exited his bedroom and I told him to get the car ready. I put on my shoes and ran outside jumping into the car.
"Go to the Thorpe's home." I instructed.

It was a 30 minute drive and I was extremely nervous, my legs couldn't stop shaking for some reason. As we neared the house, I realised. What was I going to say?
Then the rain started to pour. Great just what I need.

We arrived at the Thorpe's house and I got out.
"Come back in 30 minutes Lurch." I told him and he drove away.
I grabbed some pebbles from the front garden and looked around trying to see which room is Xavier's.

I saw a light on upstairs. Praying it was his room I started throwing pebbles at it. A minute later I see him. He comes up to the window and opens it.
"Wednesday? What the hell are you doing." He yelled.
"Come down! We need to talk." I yelled back.

Not even a minute later he came running out in his front yard.
"What are you doing here, it's 4 in the morning." He seemed annoyed. It almost made me regret coming here.

"You weren't answering my texts." I replied. Great opening Wednesday. Not.
"Yeah well, I thought you wanted nothing to do with me." He replied looking down at me bitterly. The rain started to get heavier.

"I was wrong..." He froze and so did I.
"I wanted everything to do with you. I was scared. That you were going to get hurt and I would never forgive myself because... I love you so much. The thought of you not here was too much pain and after everything we've been through these past years I realised you make me stronger, you help me and make me feel so amazing for being myself." I spilled out. I normally regret opening up but not today, I needed to in order to let him know.

"I understand if you never want to talk to me. I've put you through so much and you still managed to love me and I was selfish for not realising it simply because I thought I could be better off without you, but I can't. I need you." I was crying, thankfully the rain disguised it.

He stood there shocked. We were now both drenched and freezing just staring at each other.
I started stepping backwards. I was too late, he realised he was too good for me.
He then stepped forward and stopped me. He put his hands on my jaw and smashed his lips onto mine.
I immediately kissed him back, our lips were in sync and we only stopped to get air.

"I love you so much Wednesday." He said look down at me. "Thank you for opening up." He kissed my forehead and embraced me.
"Come on let's go inside." He told me.
I was very cold from being out there a long time so he picked me up and brought me inside.

He put me on the couch in his living room.
His home was calm, like him.
"Dad's out of town," He spoke up. Walking away to get towels.
"Oh, your spending Christmas alone?" I asked.
"Yeah, it's whatever." He said sitting down next to me and wrapping a towel around me.
"You can stay here tonight if you want." He told me.
So I texted Lurch to just go back home and tell Mother and Father where I was.

"Thanks, I will." I replied.
I had a shower in the guest bathroom and got changed into some clothes Xavier gave me. I walked into Xavier's room. He was sitting on his bed watching his phone. He looked up when he heard me enter and smiled at me.
He walked over and kissed me.
"Wanna sleep here tonight?" He asked.
"Sure." I laid down on his bed and he laughed laying down next to me.
"You so wanted to sleep here." He laughed.
"So what if I did." I smiled at him. We shared another kiss.

Soon enough we feel asleep, even though it was already morning.

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THEIR BACK TOGETHER, NOT EVEN A CHAPTER LATER. 😅

but it's fine cause they obviously can't last without each other.

Only few more chapters to go!

Katrina