"Everything changes"L.Brooks <3

Utter discomfort...

>>Contains sexual content<<

(Sorry if I used James name for Jessi's boyfriend.I get confused forgetting that I changed it to Matt,so I wouldn't get confused :/ )

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We made it to the house safely,and went inside.Matt plopped onto the bed slowly taking off his shoes.I removed my makeup and took off my flats.I felt dizzy and a bit drunk.

I couldn't stop thinking about earlier.Luke..Why did I care?Why am I being like this?

I felt arms snake around my waist."Can it be tonight baby?"He whispered in my ear as he placed my hair to the side planting a wet kiss on my neck.I turned around his hands still around me.I thought about it.

"I promised.."I muttered wrapping my hands around his neck.I kissed him with a smirk and he pulled me in closer to him.His tongue wondered around my mouth as I bit his lip.My right thigh in between his legs.I could feel him getting harder on my thigh.

He impatiently took off his shirt and then brought us together again.My hand wondered down his abdomen and found myself unbuckling his belt.I felt him smile against my lips as he took off my shirt and jeans.

I had no idea why I was doing this.But I did promise I'd try and that was my intention at the moment..With every move we did,it felt odd.I wasn't used to this but I just kept going and let myself go,letting it happen.

We were now naked,his boxers on and I had my bra and underwear on.He grabbed my ass and turned me around hovering over me as my back touched the mattress completely.I got shivers when he reached for my back and he unclipped my bra.He took it off and threw it to the ground kissing down my neck and then to my chest.

"God you're so beautiful.I've been waiting for this for a lifetime"He breathed bringing his head up again,kissing me roughly.I panicked when he took off his boxers.He then reached into the bedside table and took out something.

I realized it was a condom and he placed it on his sex but I didn't want to see.I wanted to stop right there but I just didn't move.Something kept telling me this had to happen.

His hand grasped my breast and I gasped a bit tense.He didn't seem to notice and his hand then slid down my side,going down my leg and stopping at my outer thigh.I could feel his private on my leg and I felt out of place.Out of comfort..

He sucked on my skin by my breast as I felt his hand pull down my undies.I wanted to cry,scream and leave.I was so scared.but I didn't move.He kissed me again surprising me and then he opened my legs slowly.I closed my eyes tightly as he nuzzled his face to my neck.

Why didn't I scream?!Why didn't I stop him there.

His hand went down placing himself and then I felt his tip at my entrance.I was so uncomfortable.

I couldn't scream,talk or anything.I gasped when he slowly slid inside me.I let out a small cry since it hurt.

I remember only doing this about twice with Luke.I gave my virginity up to him.But it's been so long..A year..

"Did I hurt you?Are you still you know?"Jaime's said raising his head up.I nod no."It's been a long time"I managed to speak up.He wiped away my tear and pushed himself inside me completely.I winced in pain."Tell me when I can move"He whispered kissing me once more.

I knew I was going to regret this.I was already regretting it badly.I nodded and he slowly thrusted inside me.

He grunted feeling pleasurable.He pushed inside me deeply and a moan slipped out of my mouth.I felt him smirk feeling good about himself since he thought it meant I was enjoying it.His thrusts got faster hitting my sweet spot,making me moan loudly.

"Oh baby"He cooed."You feel so good,So tight around me".I cringed at his words and turned my face so he wouldn't notice.I let out a loud moan as he hit my sweet spot once more.

Physically it was very pleasurable.But mentally it hurt.I was hurting so much.I was crying and screaming for help in the inside.

I moaned again almost screaming as he thrusted even harder.

"Oh fuck!"He groaned.

*Flashback*

My back crashed against the door and Luke opened it with my legs still wrapped around his torso.He closed it shut and then laid on top of me kissing me sweetly.

We took off our clothes and he kissed down my neck making me moan.I never felt so happy,so right.It felt like it was only the two of us in this world.It never came to my mind that giving up my virginity to Luke was something I would regret.He kissed away my tears sweetly as I cried in pain.He kissed my lips trying to distract me from the pain and I loved it.He gently thrusted inside me once letting me get used to his size.He waited for me patiently and then I reassured him moving my hips closer to his making him go deeper inside me.It was the best moment,I was in love with him..

I came back as Matt was screaming another profanity.He was still going at a fast speed letting me know that he was about to come.It still felt good but it wasn't hitting my climax.And I don't think I was going to.

As he was about to come he kept hitting me right on the sweet spot every time.I screamed out in pleasure and then felt warm liquid down there.But it didn't spread since he had a condom on.

We moaned at the same time.

"Luke"I breathed out moaning.It wasn't till seconds later I noticed I said Luke's name instead of Matt's.I was terrified that Matt would catch it and then get mad questioning me.But instead he got off of me and kissed me before displacing of his condom in the restroom.

I guess luckily he didn't hear me.But I still felt shocked at my own words.He came over wrapping his hand around me as I pretended to be asleep.I let a tear fall down.

How badly I regreted this already..