Something like love || KSJ

𝒯𝒽𝓇𝑒𝑒 | 3

When lunch time rolled around, I was internally freaking out.

I didn't want this to be weird or awkward and I knew the only person who was going to make it that way was me.

No one else knows why I'm stressing out so unless I give them a reason to question me, they won't.

I know Jimin won't say anything, so I have no idea why I'm so nervous about this.

I guess I'm mainly just thinking about if Jin found out. I don't want to make things weird in our friend group, and given the history, he might not like this.

Although we did make it known that we were free to date whoever we wanted and we wouldn't let it ruin our friendship, but I guess it's different now that it's one of his best friends. That's just another reason I never said anything.

Maybe I should talk to him...I'd rather be honest then hurt him. That's the last thing I wanted. I care about Jin. He's my best friend and I'd even go as far as to say my first love...Although I was so young, I don't even know If I knew what love was back then.

I'm going to tell him...when the time is right. When I know what's even going on. I will tell him.

I shake the thought and gather the courage to make it into the cafeteria. Inside, I see all of the guys already seated together and eating.

I grab my food and make my way over to them. Instantly, Jin spots me and scoots over. At the same time, Jimin does too. He's also seated next to Jin so that would leave me, In the middle.

I don't say anything as I slide in between the two of them. "Why do you look so stressed? We've only been here a couple of hours and senior year is a breeze." Jin laughs as he takes a bite of his food.

"First period was stressful." Jimin says for me. Jin looks from him to me with a confused look on his face but doesn't say anything. I turn to Jimin and nod towards the lunch line.

"I forgot something. Do you want to go wait with me?" I ask and Jimin nods quickly with a smile, before we make our way over.

As soon as we get in line, I glance out to see that Jin is looking directly at us. He was definitely thinking too much into this now. I needed to tell him, and fast.

"Okay, so I know we haven't established anything but I'm going to tell Jin. I don't want to lie to him and I'm sure you don't want too either. Are you cool with that?" I ask and Jimin glances in Jin's direction too, seeing him still looking but trying to do it discreetly.

"Yeah, of course. He deserves to know and you're right, I don't want to lie to him either. I also really want to see where things go so It's better to tell him." Jimin agrees and I let out a breath of relief as I nod.

"Okay good, because I do too." I smile nudging Jimin's shoulder a bit. Jimin smiles and leans into me slightly, shocking me.

I didn't even need to look over again to know that Jin had saw that.

"When were you going to tell him?" Jimin then asks as we move up in line even though I didn't actually need anything.

"Probably on the way home or when we stop the car...just in case he doesn't take it well." I say, already nervous just thinking about how he may act.

"Okay yeah, that works. Hopefully he's fine with us going out." Jimin says and then blushes when he realizes what he said. "Uh I mean, if we do of course."

I laugh as I poke his arm with my hand not visible to the wandering eyes. "Of course." I smile and Jimin seems to blush more.

After we finally make it to the front of the line, we grab something random then head back over to the table. We take our seats and right away, we're questioned.

"You guys seem overly friendly today." Jungkook says, his voice seemingly teasing. I feel Jin stiffen a bit beside me.

"You're just overthinking things because you're lonely." Jimin chimes in and a couple of the guys laugh.

I start to eat my food to avoid having to talk. It works great too because I get out of having to say anything.

Although the rest of lunch is a little uncomfortable. Luckily, I slip away quick enough afterwards before Jin can question me. I'll just talk to him in the car like I planned.

That buys me a least a couple more hours to think about what I'm going to say. I wanted to make sure I didn't say anything to upset him.

With each class that passed by, I became more and more nervous. A couple times I tried to talk myself out of why I didn't have to tell him, but I kept telling myself it was better just to be honest and get it out of the way.

In the end, I knew I needed to tell him. It's his best friend, and with our past and our friendship as a factor, there's no way I could lie. It would just be messed up and ugly on my part and I don't want that. At all.

Finally, the time came. Jin and I said our goodbyes to the other guys and headed home.

About halfway to our destination, I finally worked up the courage to tell him.

"I have something I need to tell you but please don't be mad." I say and Jin glances over at me but remains calm.

"I wanted to tell you because you're my best friend and I don't want to keep things from you." I say and Jin adjusts himself in his seat but doesn't say anything.

"Remember when I told you about the guy that I like..." I started and right away, he glances over at me, then back at the road.

"Yeah, what about him? Are you finally going to tell me who it is?" He asks with a slight laugh in his voice.

I relaxed a little thinking maybe Jin was true to his word about being fully over me. This was a good thing. It made me feel a little better about telling him. 

"Yeah, actually. I wanted to tell you myself so that you could hear it from me and not anyone else. This guy and I are going to give it a shot, so I wanted to let you know." I say and Jin is silent for a second.

"You told them, and they feel the same way?" Jin asks and I nod even though he's not looking at me.

"Who is it?" he asks, and I have to swallow down the lump in my throat. I avert my eyes downwards and speak.

"It's Jimin."

Jin eyes shoot in my direction as he brings the car to a stop. Luckily it was a red light, so he didn't have a choice. 

"Jimin?" He asks, sounding unsure of what just came out of his mouth, and mine.

"Yeah, I know, I'm sorry. That doesn't bother you, does it?" I ask, feeling nervous about what he would say next. The last thing I wanted was to upset him with this and cause drama between him and Jimin.

Jin is silent for a moment as he simply stares at me. Maybe he was in shock. 

"Well?" I ask, the anticipation making my stomach turn. Before Jin can speak, a car horn sounds from behind us, signaling that he wasn't moving now that it was green.

Jin moved forward, starting to drive again. Then in the most unsure voice I've ever heard, he says,

"Yeah, it's completely fine, no worries."

I could tell right then and there; it wasn't fine at all.

I knew this wasn't going to end well...not in the slightest.