Irreplaceable

In The Moment

Saige-

"You gotta eat something, at least take a few bites of this soup and we can split the grilled cheese ?" Dre said before sitting the bowl of soup on my nightstand but I wouldn't turn around to

"I can't, every time I try eating I get sick."

"That's okay, just put something on your stomach, and keep drinking these fluids, that feeling will go away." He told me and I sighed before slightly sitting up.

He handed me the bowl of soup, and I took a few bites before pushing it away.

Just then my door opened to Mani and Dre looked at me before getting up to give us some space.

"How you feeling ?" Mani asked before sitting where Dre was

"Do you care ?" I mumbled

"Of course I do-"

"Then why didn't you stop ?? the first time I got involved you had the option and didn't stop, we're you actually surprised ??" I asked

"Saige-"

"No shut the fuck up Mani, i'm so sick of this family's shit, yet all of that money you ran off to make and you couldn't bring back a single dollar to help get me back ??" I asked

"If I didn't match his energy he would've shot at all of us, I know how this shit works Saige." He told me

"Mani, I hate you bruh, from the bottom of my heart I fucking.. hate you." I spoke before my voice cracked and tears started to fill my eyes

"Saige come on now, I don't care how bad a situation gets I would've never said that shit to you."

"I don't care Ja'mani, this shit is 100% on you, I went through hell in a matter of 24 hours and you couldn't even-" My voice cracked again causing for me to look down

He tried to comfort me but I moved out of his grip causing him to sigh and rub his hand down his face.

"I don't want anything to do with you, I don't feel safe with you." I told him while avoiding eye contact

He continued staring at me with hurt in his eyes but I didn't care. The amount of hurt that he may have been feeling wasn't near as equivalent to what I was feeling.

"I understand, and i'm sorry that I couldn't be a better brother to you." He spoke but I didn't reply, I just continued staring into space.

He cleared his throat before walking out of my room and shutting the door behind him. I began wiping the tears from my eyes before attempting to sit up. so was gaining a little strength back in my body, but everything still ached.

Soon my door opened again to Anthony and Dre. Anthony handed me what felt like my 50th gatorade, and I took it from him before taking a sip.

"Was a wrong ?" I asked causing for Anthony to furrow his eyebrows

"Of course not, we told Mani the first time you got attacked what would happen if he continued doing what he was doing, but he had already acted and didn't attempt to fix what he did, you didn't deserve to go through what you went through, and i'm sorry." Anthony told me before giving me a concerned look

"I'm not mad at you but like.. they thought that I was you.. If it was you, they would've killed you on the spot Anthony and I don't think that that's fair to you too." I spoke

"I'm fine-"

"You have shit going for you, a career, a solid female, money, why are you still letting the family's business hide under you ? it's not safe." I said causing for him to run his hand down his face