The Backbone

Chapter 16

Adam's POV

The night our daughter tells us she is a little and my husband announces he needs to go back home and sit by his mum's bedside is heartbreaking for me. Don't get me wrong I am not heartbroken about our daughter I think I am in shock with that. I'm heartbroken because my husband is leaving his family and friends and doing this by himself. I don't know if he is strong enough to do this by himself. I offered to go as well but he won't let me. He knows this was my dream, but he will always come first to my dreams, like when I was singing with Queen he always came first. He always does and always will come first the same as Edna.

I can't let it show that I am heartbroken but when he asks me to make love to him makes me worse as I will be thinking that I don't know when I can do that again. Don't get me wrong with this as I love my husband so much and that is just a part of our love that we enjoy all the time, and I will not only miss that but him as well.

I do what he asks and when we are finished, I pull him into my side, and he curls up with his head on my chest. All of a sudden, I feel tears wet my chest and I look down to see that he is shaking and silently crying. I pull him up and ask him why saying that he is beautiful and calling him my baby. He tells me that he will miss us and right then and there I vow that as soon as this X factor has finished then I will be on the first plane over to surprise him. He soon falls asleep on my chest.

The next morning comes all too soon and its time we went to the airport. We walk out to the car as I am driving him stuff what the doctors said, I'm losing my soul mate for god only knows how long and I want to spend every last minute with him.

I see Tim and Edna walk over to us and Tommy hugs Edna goodbye while Tim holds his hands out to me. I look at him and he says, "I will drive you mate; you are really not supposed to, and you can spend more time with your husband". I hand him over the keys and go to hug Edna telling her that I would see her tonight. We get in the car and I hop in the back with Tommy and pull him into my side once again.

When it's time to say goodbye after they have called Tommy's flight 3 times, I can't help but break down. Normally when I go on tour, I hold it in until I am either on the plane or in my hotel room and I just cry until there is no more tears left but this time I can't. I break down in his arms then again in Tim's arms when he walks away towards the boarding gate. I feel like he is not coming back when deep down I know he will as he wouldn't leave me with our baby girl if we were separating as Edna is his flesh and blood she is only my step daughter but I treat her like my own daughter.

I also know that Tommy wouldn't leave me as we haven't had a fight in ages, and I know deep down he loves me just like I love him with all my heart.

We watch until he disappears and once the plane has gone, we walk back to the car. Tim says to me "I think we both need a strong coffee before we get back to the studio". I nod my head not trusting my voice to not crack with emotion. I am trying so hard to stop crying but I just can't yet. Give me time then I might be able to.

We stop for coffee and Tim goes and gets it while I sit in the car just looking through the pictures of Tommy and me together or the ones of just Tommy. I come across one that his face is absolutely glowing in. I took that just after we had made love after one of my tours. It was the first night back and he was naked, but no one knows that and to say that we ventured out of the room all night and all the next day is a lie because we didn't. We stayed there for over 24 hours and just spent time together. That one tour was a particularly hard one as it was the first one after we got married and it was also Tommy's first one that he didn't go on. He decided that after we got married that he wouldn't go on tour with us as we had Edna and he didn't want her missing too much school but now that she is older hopefully, he will come back on tour with me.