The Backbone

Chapter 15

Tommy's POV

As Addy and I were making our way next door so we can hear what Edna has to say, I have a bad feeling that I can't shake. I know it's not about Addy as he would have told me privately and Tim and Ant wouldn't tell us with Edna there so that only leaves my baby girl. I hope to god she is not sick or doesn't want to go live with her mother I wouldn't be able to handle that. The only things I can do is wait and see what is going on and hopefully this feeling I have will go away.

We walk into Ants and just wait for her to get back. When she walks through the door Addy holds his good arm out to her and she runs into it. I know they have always had a good father / daughter relationship. Even though they are technically stepfather and stepdaughter they don't go by that to them they are father and daughter. I find it sweet that they get along so well as when I have to go away which is hardly ever, I know that my baby girl will be safe.

I am bought out of my thoughts by Anthony saying he needs to tell us something. I look to see Edna and he are sharing a look and then Edna says, "ok I need to tell you something". Addy and I sit there arm in arm waiting for them to talk.

What she had to say shocked me at first but then I remember when Addy thought I had it and he didn't find it disgusting so I know he won't with Edna.

After we sat there talking, I hear my phone ring and I pull it out to see it's my sister. I say to Addy that's it's her and he says, "do you want me to answer it baby"? I shake my head no and I know he means well but I need to do this and brace myself for whatever she has to say.

After I get off the phone from her, I turn to Addy and say, "I need to go to mum's bedside she is not good". Addy looks at me and pulls me into his arms and he says, "ok we will go tomorrow on the first flight out of here". I shake my head and "I need to do this myself please and I don't want you to hate me later on for it as I love you too much". Addy nods his head, and he says, "ok baby but remember I would never hate you". I nod my head and I say to Edna "I'm sorry baby girl but I want you to stay here and do the Ratliff family proud by doing well and I will see you when I come back. Remember that I love you so much". Edna nods her head and crawls into my lap. I stiffen at first when I feel her crawl into my lap because she never does it. It's only ever Addy's that she will crawl into. I put my arms around her, and I pull her into my chest. I feel Addy put his arms around us both and he whispers to me "I'm going to miss you so much". I can't help the smile that comes to my face because I too will miss him as well. I will also miss our baby girl, but I can't have her see her grandmother die that's something I would never forgive myself for.

After we all have dinner Addy and I say our goodbyes so I can go back and pack to go home to America. I don't want to leave my family here, but I know that I will never forgive myself if I didn't sit by mum's bedside for a bit. Even though we had that massive fight when I married Adam, she is still my mum. I have tears in my eyes as we leave Anthony's because I will miss my daughter so much and my friends and my husband.

After I had packed my clothes and Addy booked my flight home, he held his arms out to me and I crawled up into them and just buried my face in his neck and I just cried. He held me until I stopped crying and I look up at him and say "I will miss you so much baby. Can you please make love to me before I go so, I have that to remember? I don't want to go without you, but I know that if I don't then I will never forgive myself for not saying goodbye". Adam pulls me further into his arms and he says, "oh baby you don't need to ask that of course I will as I will miss you so much too".

Adam pulls me away from him so he can kiss me and soon enough the kiss turns heated. I can't help but let out the moan that I was trying to keep in, but I couldn't. Soon enough Adam lays me down on the bed and he hovers over me and works his way down to my neck. He takes my shirt off then he takes my jeans off and soon enough I am laying there with my boxers on.

Adam pulls away from me so he can take his clothes off as well and when he gets back on the bed, he has nothing on and my mouth waters at the sight of him naked. Every time I see him like this, I still can't get over it. I can't get over the fact that this man is all mine.

SMUT

We lie there on the bed sharing kisses and I can't help but to buck my hips up into his and I feel my length hit his and it only makes me want him more. I moan out to him to hurry up, so he leans over to grab the lube. He slowly lubes his fingers and adds one and starts thrusting it in and out of my hole. Once I am stretched enough, he adds another then the third.

He lubes up his member and moves so it sits just at my hole and slowly thrusts it in inch by inch. I move my hips up hoping to give him a hint which it does as he moves so my legs are over his shoulders. He keeps thrusting in and out until I feel that all too familiar heat in my stomach and soon enough, I scream his name while cumin between our stomachs. I clench around him which brings him undone. He screams my name while we both come down from our high.

Once we are breathing properly Adam moves out of me to get a rag to clean us up

END OF SMUT

When Addy lays back down beside me, I curl into his side and he puts his arm around me to bring me closer, so my head is resting on his chest.

I lay there silently crying on his chest, but he must feel the tears as he says to me "hey beautiful what's wrong? Don't cry baby". I look up at him and say "I'm sorry I can't help it; I don't want to go and leave you for god only knows how long. I can't bear the thought of being away from you and our daughter. I love you so much and I am going to miss you, but I know if I don't go then I will regret it for the rest of my life. I need to make amends with mum before she dies". Adam kisses my forehead and he says "as soon as I get time I will be on the first plane over to your side and I am going to miss you too so much but your right you need to do this for you and for your mum". I can't help but sob into his chest that I eventually fall asleep from crying and sobbing.

All too soon the next morning comes and it's time for me to go to the airport. Adam and I walk out to the car as he persists on driving me even though he isn't supposed to. Deep down I like the fact that he is so I can spend more time with him.

Just as we put my bags in the back of the car Edna and Tim come out and run over to us. Tim holds his hand out to Adam for the keys and he says, "I will drive mate you really aren't supposed to so I will, and you can sit with your husband and keep him calm". Adam hands him the keys and I walk over to say goodbye to my daughter. I pull her into my chest and kiss her forehead and say "I'm going to miss you baby girl please look after your papa for me while I am gone, and I will see you as soon as I can. Remember that I love you so much". She nods her head against my chest and then she pulls away and we say goodbye for the last time for maybe a few months.

I get into the back of the car and I have tears running down my cheeks again and I feel Adam pull me into his arms again where he calms me down slightly. I am no longer crying just cuddled into his chest and smelling his familiar scent.

We get to the airport too soon for my liking and we all hop out and walk to the gate together. As they call my flight, I am pulled into Adams arms again and we just stand there with both of us crying this time. I have never seen Adam like this even when he goes on tour for 6 months at a time, he will only have tears in his eyes, but I have never seen him full on crying and it's heartbreaking to see him like this. He whispers to me "I love you so much and I'm going to miss you please be safe and I will ring you and text you". I nod my head and whisper back "I love you too my sexy baby boy and I will look forward to your calls and texts, please look after our daughter"? He nods his head.

We pull apart as they call my flight for the last time and with a heavy heart and tears running down my cheeks, I walk off so I can board the plane. I look back one last time and I see Tim with Adam in his arms and that breaks me again. I'm having second thoughts and don't know if I can do this by myself. It just shows that without Adam by myside I am weak. But I square my shoulders and continue on as I need to do this. Not only for me but for my mum as well as my family, especially my daughter.

I sit on the plane and try to take my mind off of leaving my family behind, but I can't. I pull my headphones out of my carry on and listen to the music of Addy's that relaxes me which he so kindly put on my phone the other night.

I drift into a dream less sleep while listening to my husband sings to me.