I'll keep trying.

Coffee spilled all over the car dashboard.

Sidearms POV:

My breath got shorter and warmer every time I exhaled. I couldn't believe what my eyes we're witnessing at the moment. I got a text from Speedy.

I kept reading it over and over again hoping the words would jumble up into a different sentence but I kept reading, "Side, I just got in a car crash.. fuck"

I wanted to call him, I wanted to run over to *Insert Speedy's state he lives in* as fast as I could, I wanted to be right next to Speedy. But I couldn't, I live days away and I still haven't gotten my license, come to think of it, nor have I seen Speedy in real life. I've always thought about actually going with the traveling crew when they were at a convention near me but I was so scared.

I didn't want them to see what I looked like or how I embarrassingly awkward I am in real life, but now I wish I can.

I didn't have the heart to tell the crew, I clenched my fists, quickly pulling thoughts out of my brain to think of an excuse or what Speedy could possibly be doing right now, I started to tremble and tears once again didn't fail to flood my eyes.

My phone laid inches away from me when the it rang, I quickly lunged to it to pick up.

Sidearms: Hello, Speedy? Oh man, How are you!? Are you alright?! Do you-

Speedy: Hehe, Side. I'm fine just a few cuts and bruises even my coffee spilled all over the car dashboard.

Sidearms: Oh thank god..

Speedy: Didn't mean to scare ya' there bud.

Sidearms: You did more than scare me..

Speedy: Ha, sorry Side.

Sidearms: It's fine man, what the hell happened?

Speedy: Holy shit, what did happen? I remember just driving down highway and my eyes kept closing.. I was no where near a hotel, motel or even a gas station, I guess I just dozed off.

Sidearms: So partly this was my fault wasn't it? I shouldn't ha-

Speedy: No Side, I'm glad you called. This was gonna be a surprise but my idea was to actually come see you.

Sidearms: See me? Why would you wanna do that?

Speedy: I mean, so we can just hang out

Sidearms: Hangout? Oh, sure. Sounds cool.

Speedy: Gee Side, I thought I'd get a better response than that..

Sidearms: Nah man, you're right. Sorry, like it's still processing in my head you know?

Speedy: Well, Side. Catcha later, I should be there in a few days, okay?

Sidearms: Sounds great, man! Can't wait.

And then I moved my phone out of my warm face and I dropped it to the ground with myself following along with it. What in the world was Speedy thinking? What if he- And we wouldn't know- and-

Tears streamed down my face again. Millions of thoughts rushed through my head and I didn't know what to say or how to bring this up to crew in any way. I quickly ran to my computer, turned on my headset and joined already a 2 hour skype call with the gang.

Jahova: Oh hey, Side. We're playing CS:GO, Would you like yo join?

Sidearms: Not today, feller.

Jahova: Oh, cool.

Deluxe 4: Side, have you heard of your little boyfriend, Speedy?

Jahova: Damn, that's right. We haven't heard of him since last night ago.

Deluxe 4: Yeah, exactly man, Do ya' Side?

Sidearms: I..u-h..

Deluxe 4: Well did ya' or did ya' not feller?

Sidearms: I..I..I

Jahova: What the hell Sidearms

At this point, I couldn't keep stalling and I had to tell them no matter how many times I mouthed the words nothing came out but a shutter.

Deluxe 4: Got dammit, Sidearms. Did ya' or did ya' not?

Sidearms: ..I did..

Deluxe 4: You did? Well shit, why'd ya' take that long to say something.

Sidearms: I mean, I did. But I don't know where he's at now. Probably at a hospital or something..

Jahova: A hospital?! Why would he be at a hospital?

My heart raced and I knew I skipped a few steps before actually telling them what happened to Speedy.

Deluxe 4: What?

Sidearms: Okay, he called me this morning. He said he got in a car crash.. but he's fine! He's gonna go get checked in and he's apparently gonna be going to my place.

Deluxe 4: What the hell, going over at your place? Doesn't he live like on the other half of the state?

Sidearms: ..Um, yeah..

Jahova: That's not very much of Speedy to travel in secret. I mean atleast he would notify us he won't be getting on or something.

Deluxe 4: Are you sure Side? Is this what he told you? Um, why exactly to do at your place?

Sidearms: Hang out. Well that's what he said. It was a surprise to me too.

Deluxe 4: Sidearms? This is stupid but like, Would you mind having a few extra guests coming over.

Jahova: Yeah.

Sidearms: U...h, Guests?

Deluxe 4: Yeah, i'd like to come over as well.

Sidearms: But you guys live half way around every where? Why? When? But-

Deluxe 4: Listen Sidearms, I have no intentions of visiting you either, but Speedy wouldn't just pack his bags and go out to visit you. Something must have come up. Okay? Yeah, I guess I'll start packing and drive up there myself.

Jahova: Yeah, literally same. I'm not that far from ya' Side either.

Sidearms: I-Is anyone else coming or

Deluxe 4: I was texting D20 as we were talking, he actually brought up the idea himself.

Jahova: I guess, I'll tell the rest. Sorry for the sudden visit, Side but this is actually important.

I left the call and I sorta felt better practically the entire crew is coming but then again it felt so rushed that everyone was going to come over? Or visit? Or whatever. I didn't know what to do but