I'll keep trying.

It's okay

*Author's note* Oh my god, y'all it's literally been like 4 years since I wrote this. I was retreading it and it literally had potential to be a good story but it has so many errors, I'm cringing at how bad it is. Well I'm a lot older now so hopefully I can come back and start writing BETTER. I also remembered that this story had 1k reads, that's amazing! Thank you again for reading!

Sidearm's POV:
It felt like my thoughts over filled my head and trickled onto my fingertips, my fists clinched at the sight of G holding Tori. Her smile was the widest I have seen since she's been here and it angered me.. it wasn't because of me.
I couldn't help but fix my eyes towards G hoping he would make eye contact with my anger enraged eyes but he didn't, almost like he knew I was staring him down.

Speedy: Side, I know it looks bad..
Sidearms: BAD..this is literally terrible..I want to run over and sock G in the mouth..
Speedy: Side..stop this isn't you.
Sidearms: Speedy..I, I just don't know what to do! G knows I am in love with her! SHE knows I'm in love with her. It's like she's trying to poke at my heart.. and it's working.
Speedy: Sidearms, maybe.. I don't know, do you think G has a crush on Tori as well?
Sidearms: ..HE CAN'T-
Speedy: Side, I'm not saying he does.. it could be plausible.

I didn't want to hear that from Speedy, whenever Speedy gave me advice or voiced his opinion, it turned out to be right. So hearing Speedy say G potentially has a crush on Tori really ruined me.
After a few more photos, she raced G back downstairs. Smiling and laughing and having the time of her life. The only though that ran through my head was, "She talked to me to get to G.."

Tori: Hi baby!

Baby? Where is this coming from?

Sidearms: H-hey.. baby?
Tori: I hope you don't mind me calling you baby, baby.
Sidearms: No, it's fine..

She kneeled on the floor beside me and pulled me below with her.

Tori: Look at these pics, G took of me! They look so good. Look how Instagram worthy I look! My mom is foreshore going to love these!

G. That's all I could think about. Why didn't she take pictures with me? Why wasn't she dragged me separating us from the group to have a photo shoot? Why couldn't that be me?

Sidearms: They look phenomenal Tori.
Tori: Thank you. hun.. I'm so glad I came down to see you. This was the best decision I've ever made. Meeting the guys, meeting YOU. It's been a dream come true!
Sidearms: Me? It doesn't feel like you flew over to see me..
Tori: Side? What's this all about? Let's talk about this once in for all.

I grabbed Tori's hand and lifted her from the floor she was sitting on and dragged her to the lobby of the convention center. Just pointing back at Speedy assuring him where I was going, he gave me a thumbs up and proceeded to walk on with the guys.

Tori: S-Side?! What's going on..
Sidearms: Tori, do you really love me?

All the confidence I never had suddenly overwhelmed me.

Tori: Side? Of course I do. I really love you.
Sidearms: That's hard for me to believe, you've been spending more time with G than with like.. me.
Tori: Albi, I'm surprised you're jealous. I didn't know you felt that way.. listen I don't like G that way. Not the way I like you-
Sidearms: Did you come here to see me.. or G.
Tori: Albi, I'm hurt. Why would you believe that all. I don't like G, okay? We spent a little time together and well, he's one of my favorites from the crew as well, maybe it was just my fangirl taking advantage of the moment.. but Side, I love you. What happened in that hotel room won't stay in that hotel room forever. I wasn't there entirely but I meant everything I said, truthfully.

I trembled where I stood as I listened to Tori explain herself. I wanted to believe her, the lovesick Sidearms inside of me wanted to jump into her arms and forget everything existed but something was stopping me. She looked directly into my eyes and I saw her genuine soul through those brown eyes.

Tori: I'm really sorry, Albi. I didn't mean to hurt. I probably screwed up my chance to be with you.
Sidearms: You didn't.

She didn't.

Sidearms: I also have some part of fault with this. I'm just so, you know, in love with you. I believed anything my head was telling me.. even though in my heart it wasn't true..
Tori: Don't apologize, Albi.

At the moment, both of us held our breaths and we waiting for one of us to make another move or say something else.
My choice of shoes were the most interesting object in the entire convention at this moment.

Tori smiled and leaned closer.

She was going to kiss me.

Closer and closer.

She kissed me.

It felt like the entire world disappeared before us.

I kissed her back and that triggered her to throw her arms behind my neck and my hands below her waist.

What was minutes, felt like hours until we finally detached ourselves from each other's grasps. I could feel her smile beam against mine and I swear our smiles were the brightest in the room.
All the jealousy I felt earlier towards G completely melted away and the love for Tori grew and grew and grew.

There's a lot of things I regret in my love but giving Tori my entire heart isn't one of them.

*Author's Note*
HEYYYYY Y'ALL...so I'm literally back with writing. I've grown up from 3 years ago and my writing has a lot of mistakes but I promise y'all it's better now, don't leave me!!!