imbalance I neteyam sully

chapter three . the unseen

the people of the metikayina clan are so different, their skin is a shade of aqua, their tales, arms and eyes are so different, so beautiful. 

i like how the metikayina people look, they're beautiful. 

we land on the shore of the ocean, "what is wrong with that one?" a voice spoke and i turn into their direction. a boy around the same age as neteyam was looking at me with a foul expression over his face, my ears fall back and i look down.

outcast. 

lo'ak hisses at the boy, "lo'ak!" jake yelled, "behave!" lo'ak turned to me, not acknowledging his fathers words, "you're the unseen beauty within the forest, remember that," he reassures me. 

"toruk makto," the obvious clan leader spoke, jake approached him a little and they began talking, i was to focused on looking around me to acknowledge what they were saying. 

i turn to the direction both lo'ak and neteyam are looking, a see a girl rise from the water, a beautiful girl, she is the unseen beauty, she is beauty. 

"hi," lo'ak spoke, i turned and looked up at him. he is blushing, he is crushing on this woman. neteyam looks at me with a smile and i return one, lo'ak has found his beauty. 

lo'ak will leave me. 

lo'ak will go with her. 

voices of jealousy begin to go through my head, not lo'ak, he would never. 

my thoughts are interrupted by a taller woman grabbing onto my hair, "white hair, purple eyes.. demon hands!" she yelled, i snatch my hair away from her and let out a hiss, "don't touch me!" i yell in her face. 

"akari! i am so sorry for her behaviour, she's tired from our long trip," jake assures the clan leader, i continue to glare into the eyes of the woman. 

"don't apologise, i understand. youse are allowed to stay, make home on our land and become one of us. my children will teach your children our ways, ronal and i will teach yourself and neytiri," he gave a bright smile and walks towards his kids, "aonung and tsireya," he gestured towards us. 

aonung was the boy who questioned what was wrong with me, this is going to be great, tortured, harassed by someone and i cant defend myself because it is the clan leaders eldest son. 

"k," neteyam whispered into my ear, we are on our way to our tent and lo'ak is right behind tsireya, this was the first time in years, he has left me in such a uneasy spot. 

"ney," i responded back and gripped onto his hand as we walk, "are you okay?" he questioned, i look up into his eyes, he looks so exhausted, so lonely, so sad. "are you okay?" i question him, he shakes his head and i shake mine. 

we both were mutually feeling the same, but we couldn't do anything to help the other in this moment besides be there. 

"this is where you'll be living," the girls voice spoke, "it is beautiful," jake said as he looked around, she gave him a smile then looked towards lo'ak.

watching them interact, made me realise how unneeded i was for lo'ak and how much i depended on him. 

kiri could feel me in this moment, she looped her fingers through mine but didn't say anything.

i hate this change.

"we can introduce you guys into the water?" she questions, "take them, they'd love to learn," jake answers for us. 

i look over at neytiri who hasn't spoken a word, yet her eyes tell an entire story. 

i feel so bad for her, my spirit, my neytiri. 

"come on!" lo'ak broke my trance and we begin following tsireya and her brother, even the way she walked was beautiful, how can one be so magical, be so.. happy?

i feel her happiness reflect onto me, she's what jake referred to me as; pure. 

we are in the water following the siblings, unlike them, we are unable to hold our breath for long periods of time, i noticed the brother, laughing, making fun of us, but tsireya, she didn't she wanted us to be able to be like her. 

she swam out of the water towards, tuk, lo'ak, neteyam and i, "what is wrong?" she questions, "we can't understand you," lo'ak responds, "we can't hold our breath for that long either," i also stated.

learning and adapting to the metikayina people's ways was actually really interesting, i was enjoying it. learning breathing tactics and being able to stay underwater for several minutes was something i thought id never experience, i loved the water life. 

"white baby," i turn to aonung, "come try," i look at their version of an ikran, lo'ak had just tried and had failed miserably. "okay," i respond and swim over to an'nung. i connect mine and the sea animals tendrils, i felt an'nung watch very intensely, as i went to pull myself over the animal, i feel hands land each side of my waist and seat me on-top of it.

i look at an'nung, "thank you, but i could've gotten on myself," and with that last word, i was under water going what seemed like thousands of miles, i try to control myself, my thoughts and focus on our connection.

"slow and steady," i spoke in my head, the sea-creature became slow and made it's way back over to the group, "good girl," i say with my head out of water. 

"the great akari, perfect at everything," lo'ak said with a smile. 

this is the first time he has spoken to me since we arrived several hours ago, i didn't acknowledge his words and pretended like he had said nothing to me. 

"thank you, they're beautiful creatures," i say to aonung, he gives me a soft smile and i slide down off the creature. a soft whisper enters my ear, "ill see you tomorrow white baby," i look at an'nung and within seconds he was gone. 

"ill see you guys bright and early tomorrow, new day, new possibilities," tsireya spoke of only positive words. 

when we arrived back at the tent, lo'ak and i still haven't spoken a word. he looked at me with so much desperation. "together?" he asked, i just gave him a small nod and looked back at neteyam. 

"when are you going to stop sleeping together?" neteyam asks, "when i find someone for life," i respond. 

"a mate," he questioned, "a mate," i repeat. 

neteyam looked into my eyes with so much love but the imbalance of all his other feelings blurred his eyes' story and all i could feel was the pain. 

what was this pain?