Sander Sides One Shots

Logan angst cause im in a bad mood

Yes I know I said I'm no longer really that much into sander sides but looks like I was wrong about that

But yeah recently figured out I'm a bit of a Logan kinnie
So time to make him suffer while sprinkling in some venting along with it

No tw cause idk its 4am I'm tired

Just be mindful
But there will be nothing like sh or suicide or anything like that

This may be messy and it probably wont be spellchecked cause I could care less rn

And I'm sorry for this bring my second vent fic (kinda)
I'll try and write some fluff for the next chapter

~Logans POV~

I just stare at my work. I should be doing it, but I really just can't bring myself too. Everything has been to much lately.

No ones been listening to me.. no one seems to really acknowledge ny feelings.. there's always someone else more important than me..

Someone is always in a bad mood or someone needs help with something. Why is it never about me?

Because I shouldn't have emotions... they're pesky and confusing and just get in the way of everything-...

But the why do I burst out like I do..? Why do I find myself restless, just burying myself into my work because its the only thing I find comfort in.

My work is the only thing that makes sense right now... I dont know why the others ignore me, and I don't know why it hurts me so much... but this I do know...

So why cant I bring myself to do it right now? Why does the idea of actually doing it sound so... dissatisfying...

It doesnt make sense to me.. I know I could ask Patton but hes always so busy with Virgil or Roman. Theres never time for me is there...

I'm the only side who literally can't duck out, I'm just a personification of Thomas' logic which cant just up and leave like anxiety or creativity..

So I guess that's why I seem so... expendable... it doesnt matter if I'm hurt.. I'm lucky to be here... so I should just forgive and forget right...?

That's what sounds right but then why does it feel wrong...?

Just another reason to hate emotions.. they make you go against reason, and I dont want that. I'm literally the embodiment of logic and reason, so I shouldn't be unreasonable...

But my emotions only ever hurt people.. I threw paper at Roman's eye for fucks sake.

All because I got angry...

Why is it so hard to just ignore my emotions?!

I don't need them, they're useless to me... they're keeping me from my work...

I just want to get rid of them..

Because maybe I dont want to forgive Roman for calling me stupid... maybe I dont want to just pretend the others don't treat me as though I'm expendable...

Maybe I want to get to be the selfish one for ONCE...

I've done nothing but do my best to help the others and Thomas... that's all I've done...

But I never get so much as a "thank you" or a "good job"...

Is it a crime to want to be acknowledged for what I do for once?

I'm just... exhausted I guess.. from everything.

Theres been so much going on that I'm sure what I'm pointlessly focusing on right now isnt even all of it...

I just want to relax... but the moment I do I feel like I'm useless... a failure..

Because that's what I'm treated as isnt it..? Useless...

That's why no one listens to me isnt it.. they dont think they need me...

Now I'm just overthinking great...

I should just get back to work, then at least something will make sense again...