Sinful Pleasures • kim namjoon

chapter 34 (Finale)

Ari's POV:

i was sitting on the couch in my living room watching Korean Dramas until i heard a knock on the door.

i got up to open it and saw my brother Jay, "hello my lovely sister, step aside." he pushed me aside and entered my apartment room. "well hello to you too dear brother.'' i closed the door and sat beside him on the couch.

''so what's up? how's your CEO boyfriend?'' he asked sarcastically. i cleared my throat before i could answer, ''about him... we are not talking.'' i mumbled. ''why aren't you guys talking?'' he asked. i explained to him about what happened after the night i had dinner at Namjoon's house.

i talked about what happened with regarding to having ice cream with Namjoon and his daughter, how i got myself in a fake relationship with Jungkook and how that fake relationship caused more problems between me and Jungkook also involving Jenny. i also spoke about stumbling across Namjoon's journal and experiencing a panic attack after interpreting something i read.

''panic attack? what did he even write about?'' he asked, ''he wanted to you know... end his existence...'' i answered without actually telling him the actual word. ''yikes, i'm sure he's doing alright now right?'' he asked while i could interpret concern in his voice. i assured him that he was doing alright and he shouldn't worry.

after explaining to Jay he sat in silence looking at me with pure concern, ''Ari, you really need to choose carefully. i haven't met Jungkook yet but i can definitely tell you that he never left his old life. he's still a playboy, if you want to be with him then sure i won't stop you but please be certain about your decision.''

Jay was right, i had to choose. it was getting to the point in which i was starting to get tired, tired of being sad and miserable over two men that were childish in their own way.

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after my brother left i decided to speak to Jungkook, i left my apartment room and made my way to Jungkook's room. as i was about to knock on the door i heard voices talking. their voices were completed audible, i could hear everything they spoke about.

"she doesn't know about us right?"

"i don't think she does, she's not that snoopy nor questionable."

"Ari is not dumb Jungkook, she obviously knows. Taehyung or Jimin must've told her!"

"calm down, she's probably starting to gain feelings for me since i kept telling her that i love her."

"you better pray she's definitely gaining feelings."

"Ari?" i quickly stepped away from the door and saw Taehyung looking at me, "tell your friend that he's a bitch."

i walked past him and before i could properly get away from him he grabbed my hand and pulled me. "what did you hear?" he asked. "why didn't you tell me that you saw Jungkook and Jenny together? why!?" i yelled. "it's because i knew that you wouldn't fucking care!" he yelled back, we heard the door open and Jungkook walked out his room with Jenny.

"what's going on..." Jungkook paused when he saw me, "you think that i didn't know about you and Jenny. you're still a fucking playboy i should've-" i paused.

"should've what?" Jungkook asked, he demanded for me to finish my sentence. i remained silent, contemplating whether if i should expose the truth or not.

"speak up!" he yelled, "shut up!" Taehyung yelled at him. "just shut up! stop shouting at her! go inside and fuck Jenny like what you always do!"

"oh so you and Jenny are really messing around?" i retorted. Jungkook tried denying it but his body language stated otherwise.

"what's going on here?" we all turned to see who was watching us and it was Namjoon. "hyung! what the hell are you doing here?" Jungkook asked in an angered tone.

"i came to see Ari with regards to my anniversary party." Namjoon answered, he approached us. Jungkook pushed me and Taehyung aside and stood in front of Namjoon. "oh really? are you sure you're not here because of your small lousy crush on Ari?" Jungkook started to tease Namjoon, Namjoon looked physically angry, he clenched his jaw and started breathing heavily.

"why would she want to deal with an ugly asshole like you?" Jungkook then proceeded to push Namjoon. Namjoon didn't react at all, he just stood there staring at Jungkook.

"knock it off." Taehyung scolded Jungkook but that didn't stop him. Jungkook continued to mock and ridicule Namjoon, hearing Jungkook say mean things to Namjoon made me feel disgusted. i didn't think that Jungkook was that type of person. Namjoon was strong when taking in those words Jungkook spat at him.

"enough!" Jenny yelled, i turned to look at Jenny with a surprised expression. "enough Jungkook, would you please stop saying such nasty things to Namjoon!"

"you're damn right." i agreed. i stepped in between Namjoon and Jungkook and faced Jungkook, "i didn't know that you were this much of a bitch. come to think of it, you never really had a crush on me. you just wanted to get with me."

Jungkook defended himself but i immediately cut him off, "i don't want to hear anything from your dirty mouth. you're indeed a playboy, a nasty playboy."

i continued to point out his wrongs, Namjoon even insisted on going back to my room but i insisted on talking to Jungkook. i spoke my "relationship" with Namjoon, although he was married and although Namjoon's weird creepy behavior in the beginning but he tried to better himself.

"i knew from the beginning you were too good to be true, you were too perfect. i'm absolutely grateful that i didn't say 'i love you' since that wouldn't been my biggest mistake."

before i left i made sure to say my legendary final last words, "and one last thing... in bed? Namjoon is better than you."

i grabbed Namjoon's hand and walked to my room, i opened the door and walked in. Namjoon closed the door behind him, i paced across my living room while breathing heavily.

"what happened back there... did you really confirm that you and i-"

"yes Namjoon i really confirmed to Jungkook about us, what are you going to be about it?" i snapped. "what do you want here anyways?" i asked thereafter with anger fuming in my voice.

"i don't have a home." he answered, i stopped pacing and stared at him. "huh?" i was confused.

"i told Nina about us, i decided to leave home. i'm living at a hotel. i wanted to let you know." i immediately felt bad for him. i insisted on the idea of him living with me but he denied, me being me i don't take no for an answer.

i walked up to him and cupped both of his cheeks, "Namjoon please save your money and just come live with me, i'll pay for everything until you have the ability to pay half of the rent. i insist."

a tear rolled down his face, i wiped it off with my thumb. "please?" i begged him while i pouted. he chuckled and my facial expression and at the tone of my voice, "fine i'll live with you." he finally agreed.

i kissed him on his forehead and walked to the kitchen, "oh and Namjoon?" i called out to him. "yes?" he answered.

"remember when you joked about me being your second wife?" i questioned, he slightly nodded while he looked at me with suspicion.

"can i be your second wife already?" i asked, his eyes widened. more tears rolled down his face, he ran over to me and hugged me. he picked up causing my feet to dangle off the ground.

he pulled away from the hug and smiled at me, he didn't have any words to express how he felt. he just sobbed, my eyes started to tear up. i kissed him on his forehead and he also reciprocated the same thing, he finally had the ability to speak and what he said warmed my heart completely.

"you're the only one i long for, Ari. you're the only light in my world, i love you Ari. it's only us till the end of time."

THE END