Sinful Pleasures • kim namjoon

chapter 13

"and what about me? just something that you can use to satisfy you?" i asked, i was filled with anger and confusion. i needed answers.

"it's because i love you dammit!" he yelled out.

i didn't answer back, i just stood. staring at him, i could tell he was also filled with anger. i didn't know how to react, whether to yell back or walk away.

we stood there, staring at each other for a few minutes. we both didn't know what to say, somewhere at the back of mind kept replying the conversation i had with Jimin until i remembered what Jimin told me. He told me that Namjoon loved me, which explained why i didn't answer back. i somewhat expected that answer but in the moment i was fuming with anger.

"oh, i see." i finally spoke up. i could sense disappointment in his eyes, it was like he was expecting a different answer. a different answer that was similar to what he confessed.

he gave me a fake smile and walked back to his office and shut the door. i was about to cry in that moment but i managed to fight the tears, i turned around and walked back to the lounge area.

i finally reached the lounge area and saw Jungkook talking to Taehyung. Jungkook saw me and his smile instantly faded, it was replaced with sadness. i automatically knew why but i didn't beat myself up for it.

"hey you two." i greeted them. "where have you been? we were looking for you, it's time to leave. we're exhausted." Tae stated. "i also want to leave, oh i was at the bathroom. i needed a moment." i lied. surprisingly they bought the lie and started to comfort me but i assured them that i was alright. we left the building and made our way to Jungkook's car.

i got in the passenger seat and Tae sat in the backseat. Jungkook started the car and drove off. during the drive home Tae and Jungkook had a lively conversation about food, it was weird hearing them speak about food so passionately but i remained silent.

after a few minutes i felt someone intertwine their hand with my right hand. i looked at their hand and realized that it was Jungkook's hand, i looked up at him and he was focused on the road. i smiled and then looked away, we stayed like that until the drive home.

at last we finally reached out apartment complex, we got out of the car and made our way towards the entrance of the building. Jungkook and Tae accompanied me to my room, when we reached my room Tae and Jungkook hugged me and left.

i entered my room and slowly made my way to the bedroom. i sat on my bed, i received a notification on my phone. i opened it and saw a text message from Jimin, i clicked on his notification.

Jiminie <3
Ari? what happened to Namjoon? he's crying in his office and he doesn't want to tell me why he's crying. please text me back urgently or call me.

i immediately called Jimin, "Jimin?", "yes Ari i'm here, what's going on with Namjoon? what happened?" he sounded worried. as i was about to answer i heard a glass shatter and Jimin yelled at him to stop.

i immediately got worried, i realized why he was in distraught. i didn't give him the answer he expected after everything that happened.

"i didn't say 'i love you' back to him." i answered. "what!?" Jimin moved the phone away to talk to Namjoon, "Namjoon you can't be serious, you crying because she didn't say i love you back?" i honestly found it funny because of the way Jimin asked him that question.

"what should i fucking do to show that i love her? what!? divorce my wife? tell the whole office about how much i love her? i would even talk to her parents about us!"

i heard him yell in the background, his voice broke when he mentioned about divorcing his wife.

i remained silent as i heard Jimin and Namjoon argue with each other, it was funny hearing them argue because Jimin called Namjoon a big baby and Namjoon retaliated by calling Jimin a potato face human. was that how they argue? by calling each other strange names?

Jimin gave up and spoke to me instead, he said that will sort out everything and i shouldn't worry. i ended the call, i took a deep sigh and carried on with my day while being filled with worry and fear.

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it was the weekend, well it was Sunday. nothing much happened on Saturday, since it was Sunday i always would go out to buy groceries.

i went to my favorite supermarket, i bought the usual and some other things. as i was looking for ramen noodles i felt a tap on my shoulder. i turned around and saw Mrs Kim, Namjoon's wife.

my heart was beating fast, it felt like i was on the verge of experiencing a panic attack.

she had a smile on her face, "Ms Lee! how are you? why did you leave without saying goodbye?" she asked. i didn't know how to answer the second question but i managed to play it off, "hi Mrs Kim, i'm alright. i was exhausted and my friends were nagging me to go home."

"that's a shame, i'm glad i found you. i wanted to ask if you would like to come over for dinner." my eyes widened. Namjoon's wife invited me over for dinner. i was overwhelmed with joy but fear as well.

"dinner? oh no that's... why?" i asked, i was unsure on why she asked.

"you're my husband's favorite employee alongside Jimin. i really wanted to meet you and you seem like a good person, please come."

yeah, a good person that kissed your husband and unfortunately slept with him. great.

"oh well sure, i will come. is it tonight?" i asked. "yes tonight, i wanted to ask you on Friday but you left early. please give me your number, i'll text you our address."

i gave her my number, she seemed delighted. i felt bad for her, she seemed like a nice person but you get me and Namjoon.

"Nina don't disappear aga-" i heard a familiar voice, it was Namjoon. he was about to finish his sentence but paused when he saw me. he gave me a slight nod, i did the same with an awkward smile on my face.

"i'm sorry, i saw Ms Lee and ran after her. she's coming over for dinner tonight." she beamed.

Namjoon looked at me then looked back at her with the fakest smile i've ever seen. i rolled my eyes, Mrs Kim gave me a hug and walked away, not realizing that Namjoon was still with me, she was so overwhelmed with joy she didn't seem to be aware of her surroundings.

Namjoon took a deep sigh and walked away.

"tonight shall be fun." i thought out loud.

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