ℙ𝕚𝕟𝕜 𝕩 ℙ𝕦𝕣𝕡𝕝𝕖 [𝓪 𝓷𝓪𝓽𝓼𝓾𝓻𝓲 𝓯𝓪𝓷𝓯𝓲𝓬]

Thoughts and feelings

Natsuki POV

(If you didn't read last chapter: Yuri got r@ped by a guy called Ryota. Natsuki saved her and they breifly talked) 

After the festival, I took Yuri home in an uber. She was silent the whole journey, picking at her fingernails. I didn't want to mention anything in front of the uber driver, but as soon as we got into her house, she stood there awkwardly.

"Yuri," I said, "The first drawer, that's where..." I trailed off. I didn't know what she kept in there, but it was definately to do with the cuts on her arms.

She nodded, "It's my knife collection. P-please..." She licked her lips, "Please don't throw them out..."

I hesistated. She must like her knife collection (of all the things to collect!) but she couldn't possibly keep them. I had no idea how to resolve this. 

"Do you have a cupboard or drawer with a lock and key?" I asked. She nodded and drifted upstairs. I followed.

"There." She pointed to a drawer in her desk. It was empty.

"Ok... I'm going to move your knives to that drawer. And I'm gonna lock it, ok?"

Yuri nibbled her lip. She kept fidgeting with her hands. Finally she mumbled, "Ok." She opened the drawer underneath and gave me a key which was inside.

"You go um... have a shower or something." I said, "I'll be fine on my own." She nodded, and colleced some clothes, before disappearing into her en suite bathroom. I opened the draw and felt a sick jolt in my stomach.

Obviously I knew there would be knives, but I had no idea how many. To me, a knife was just an average kitchen knife. But these were curved, double sided, carved with intracte designs and even more stranger and more sinister knives. Some blades were black, some silver, even a gold one. Some had little dark splotches which I could tell was blood, which made me want to vomit. I transferred all the knives into the other drawer and locked it. 

A wave of relief washed over me as I heard the little click of the key. I stuffed the key into the front pocket of my backpack, so Yuri couldn't find it.

I knocked on the bathroom door, "Yuri? Are you alright?"

The sound of gushing water stopped.

"Natsuki?" Yuri's voice was wobbly, and I knew she had been crying.

"Hey..." I said soothingly into the door, "Why don't you get changed, and we can watch a movie? I can make hot chocolate..."

"Ok..." Yuri replied. I crept downstairs and started to make the hot chocolate, marshmellows and all. One mug was pink with strawberries and the other was purple with little raccoons. I brought them up on a tray, with little chocolates as well. 

Yuri was hunched on the bed, stroking her arms. She looked up when I entered and smiled weakly.

"Thank you." She murmered. She had chosen Heathers surprisingly. I didn't think I would like it, but I got slowly into it. But when it got to the bit where Veronica and JD were having sex Yuri quickly skipped that bit.

"I forgot it had that." She muttered, "I haven't watched this movie in a long time..." Her voice was shaky, and her fingers kept twitching to her forearms. 

"Hey..." I had to keep holding her hands so she wouldn't pick at her cuts. It was very awkward but eventually she stopped moving her hands and kept the still.

God I wanted to tell her how I felt so fricking bad. But after what Ryota did to her, she probably didn't want any sort of relationship with anyone. God, I wanted to snap his neck.

"Natsuki... I just wanted to say." Yuri exhaled and controlled her slightly shaky voice, "I'm so grateful that you- you've been so nice to me... I always thought... you would be disgusted... Ryota and m-my cuts..." She trailed off not catching my eye.

"Don't be silly!" I cried, "I am disguested with that slimy rat Ryota! But not disgusted with you dummy!" I felt kind of exasperated, and I just had to blurt it out.

"Isn't it obvious?! I love you you dummy!" I flung my arms over her shoulders and hugged it, "I could never be disguested with you!"

Yuri inhaled deeply, then cautiously raised her arms to hug me back.

"Natsuki..."  She choked out. I felt a shock of guilt. I was just adding to her problems wasn't I? I loosened my grip, but she tightened hers.

"I love you too." She breathed.

They finally confessed to each other!!

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