Why Can't You Love Me?

Chapter eleven

ALEX'S POV

I can honestly say that sometimes I wish we didn't live in Hawaii, I know Hawaii is like where many people dream of going, but sometimes it's too small. I mean no, Hawaii is not all so small but it's not like you can take a cross country road trip with your friends. You also don't have as much of vareity for Colleges, which my Dad says I should start looking at.

Oh yeah, my Dad happened to stop home the other day. He told me he thought about what he's been doing for the past few years; leaving me alone by myself for months at a time. Him being his own boss, he told me he's decided he would work from home for a while. Knowing my Dad, 'home' means in the state of Hawaii. I guess it's good enough.

It's been a week since I've talked to Marcus. Why? I have no idea. I texted him a few times but he said he was busy. I'm not the type of girl to go all stalker and call them every hour, so I tried to shrug it off...but I couldn't. When we went surfing everything was so good and fun, he even took me out for lunch. Yeah you could say I'm mad at him, but not mad enough to stay away from him; sleepover with his sister.

Sleepovers with Kendal were fucking awesome though, we stayed up pretty much the entire night eating everything a girl doesn't eat; gallons of ice cream, pizza, soda, chips, and everything else we can find in CVS.

The sleepover was going good, until Kendal fell asleep. Lame.

I was thirsty so I got up to grab myself a glass of water when he stopped me, well should I say grab me. Kendal and I just watched 'Drag Me To Hell' so I'm going to be scared when I feel a hand on my arm.

"Shh, you'll wake Kendal up." Marcus said putting his hand over my mouth. I quickly brushed it off.

"What the hell are you doing? It's," I looked over to the clock, "4:30 in the morning!" I said angrily.

"I need to talk to you." He said pushing me into his room across the hall.

"What is your problem?!" I whisper shouted not wanting to wake anyone.

"I just wanted to talk, chill out." He said sitting on his computer chair.

"Chill out? You freaking ignored me this passed week and you want to talk? Ugh!" I said trying to get passed him, but he blocked the door.

"I know, and I'm sorry. Can we just talk?" He asked, still blocking the door.

I was so angry I didn't even know what to do. I don't even know why I was so angry!

I looked up to Marcus one last time, and smiled.

"Let me out, Marcus Taylor or-" I didn't even get to finish what I was going to say when his lips crashed to mine. I refused at first but stopped when I realized it was no use. I won't say I didn't want this to happen because I totally wanted this to happen.

Marcus pushed me to his bed still kissing, and took off my shirt. I grabbed his face and pulled it to my mouth while pulling off his own shirt. I starred at his chest, oh my god he's so strong!

He kissed me pushing me back to the bed. His hands roamed my body, and slowed down at my shorts, which he slowly slid off.

My hands roamed his own hard body, he was so sexy it was crazy. I started tugging at his boxers not sure how far we were actually going to go. I felt Marcus's hard on rubbing on my thigh. I shivered in antisipation.

I pulled down his boxer shorts to see his grown erection. Oh my god he's a good size too! Well what would expect from a tall guy like him. I rubbed it, feeling it harden even more at my touch.

Marcus shoved me back to the bed, and tour off my thong. I felt him against my core as he got stood at the edge of the bed. I moaned.

"Wait are you a virgin?" Marcus asked.

"No, are you?" I asked but I already knew the answer.

"No. Are you ready?" He asked moving his d!ck to the right spot. I nodded my head as he thrusted himself into me, causing me to cry out his name.

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I woke up the next morning to Kendal cursing.

"What the Fu(k?! Fu(k this is Fu(ked up! Oh my fu(king gosh!" She yelled, waking me up. I cuddled into the warm thing in the bed and hid under the blankets.

"Why  don't you say the eff word one more time, I don't think the neighbors heard you." I said, trying to cuddle into the warm pillow in my bed. I was so cold.

"What the hell is wrong with you two? I mean my brother?!" She asked, pulling the blanket off of me. Kendal screamed and threw the blanket back to me.

That's when I saw what she was talking about, I slept with Marcus. And yes, I don't just mean slept I mean had sex with Marcus. I couldn't help but smile.

"Oh my god, it's weird enough seeing two naked people in bed, but it's too much to handle when its you brother and best friend!" Kendal said, storming out of the room leaving me and Marcus alone.

I covered myself with the blanket, while Marcus put his boxers back on.

We both just sat there for what seemed like forever but in reality it was barely over five minutes.

Say something, goddammit! Why won't you say something?

WHy won't Marc say something?

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen." Marcus said, breaking the awkward silence. What does that mean?

"Are you saying you regret it?" I asked a little mad, what a d!ck! He get's me out of my pants only to regret it the next morning?

"No no I definately don't regret it! It was, it was the best I've ever had, not that I've had a lot or anything." Marcus said making me smile. The best?

"It's not a secret Marcus." I said, and found my shirt on the floor. I got up with the blanket covering my body, and put on my shirt.

"What's not a secret?" Marcus asked confused.

"That you've been with many girls." I told him putting on my underwear.

"I haven't been with many girls. Just a decent amount, but I'm done with those days. I haven't had sex in three months, well not including us." He said ashamed. "Alex, please promise me this won't make everthing awkward between us. I really like you."

"I don't want anything to be awkward either, but it already is awkward. I mean if Kendal didn't see us, we could just move on, but she did." I said sitting in his computer chair.

"I know. " Marcus said getting up and putting on a shirt, making me a little upset that he's covering up his body. "I know how we can not make this as awkward."

"How?" I asked a little suspitious, expecially at how he was looking at me with a creepy look.

"You be my girlfriend." Did he really just say that? In the inside I was joy dancing, but on the outside I couldn't say yeah.

"Look, I don't want us to just go out so we make this less awkward."

"Alex, will you be my girlfriend? Aside from what went down last night, I would be really happy if you were to be my girlfriend." Marcus said walking to me. I froze, was I supposed to say yes or no? Of course I was going to say yes, but what about Kendal? How would she feel?

"..Okay." I said. Marcus smiled and hugged me.

"See now everythings good between us. Now we just have to talk to Kendal."

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I know it's pretty weird but it's good they know how they each feel now!

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