If we burn } Finnick Odair

Chapter 6~first morning~

Finnick's pov

I knew the capital was terrible. I've always knew they were smart. They've always known the best form of punishment. Why did they have to try so much on Daphne? She's stronger than what I can ever dream of being. Even after ALL of those punishments not once did she break.

I know she's truly holding it all in. Last night after her nightmare was just a small crack she feels as if she could repair.

I want to tell her she can talk to me to stop shutting me out that it's okay to feel emotion, but I know she will on her own time. Emotions have always been a difficult thing for Daphne. Even for a while after her games the capital thought she was mad. Little did any of them realize we all were. We've all gone mad. Whether we all know it or not. We went mad years ago. As soon as our names were drawn from that reaping bowl for the first time we went mad. Mad, manic, insane, crazy there's a million words to call how we were and will be for the rest of our lives.

Daphne's pov

Finnick wakes me up gently by kissing my cheek and nudging my shoulder. Other than my night terror that was whole heartedly the best sleep I've had in a while.

He keeps his hand lingering on my head. "I missed waking up with you every morning." I say. "So do I. It was way colder." I snicker inching my face close to his placing a kiss on his lips. At first I thought it would just be a quick peck then we have to get up. I realize it's not when he keeps his hand on my neck. Being deprived of each others lips for so long we have to make up for all the lost time and more.

After we sadly break the kiss we actually get up and start to get ready. Grey jumpsuits and boots. Mines a little bigger than I expected but it's not terrible. I brush through my hair thankful I still have it unlike Johanna. Johanna. "We have to see Johanna and Peeta." I say. Finnick nods in agreement.

We start to walk out the door. "Wait." Finnick says pulling me back to the bed. "What?" "The cream the medic said to use. Where all are you burnt?" "Just my arms and legs but it's fine really." "No we have to get you back to yourself as fast as possible." I can't help but smile at him. He applies the medicine to my arms. I notice how pale I am now. I flinch when he puts the cold medicine touches my legs. "What what's wrong?" "It was cold." He laughs. "I thought I hurt you or something." I laugh too.

We walk out through the halls of 13. I grab his hand in mine missing how his skin felt already. His thumb caresses the back of my hand as he looks down at me. I look back up at him and smile a peaceful smile. I really do feel at peace right now. I think. I think in ways I try to block out the memories of the capital to the point I pretend it's not even real. It can't hurt me if it's not real.

A shiver goes through my body just thinking about that place. The screams of Peeta and Johanna, the smell of President Snow's bloody roses, the hands of capital men all over my body. Ew. Stop. Daphne. You're safe now. You're safe now. "You okay?" "Huh? Oh yeah." "Did you hear what I said?" What did Finnick say? "I said after we eat we can check on them." "Oh okay. I'm sorry." "Are you sure you're okay?" "Mhm yeah." Finnick looks back forward squeezing my hand comfortingly.

Finnick's pov

She thinks I'm blind I think. I can tell by her body language somethings wrong. I don't even think she realizes herself still. I just want to hold her. Tell her it's okay to let it all out. But she won't. Not yet. Being here with her is like a dream come true. I just want more than anything for her to just tell me what's going on. Her opening up about the capital last night so soon was still shocking. In some ways. She explain what happened but she doesn't explain how she feels about it until she's truly ready. I don't know how long it will take. But whenever she's ready I'll be ready.

Daphne's pov

Breakfast. Food. Oh my gosh. I never thought I'd be so excited to eat crappy food. It's something other than water inside me. Finnick helps me with my tray. Asking me what I'd be okay with trying first knowing the transition will be weird at first. I end up with a couple of fruits, and some porridge. Not a full bowl in case the constancy makes me gag to where I can't eat it.

I spot Mags at the table Finnick and I will be sitting at. "Mags!" I exclaim giving the old lady a hug. She kisses my cheek sweetly smiling. "I knew you would fight." She signs. I smile at her. Sitting down in between her and Finnick. I don't see Katniss Johanna or Peeta. Haymitch Effie and Katniss's family are in front of us.

"Welcome back angel." Haymitch says. "It's great to be back. How are the others?" "Peeta attacked Katniss last night. Tracker Jacker venom they say." I remember Peeta telling us this before he warned 13 about the bombing. It never dawned on me they were using them to make him hate Katniss so much. I guess because that night he saved her..he saved all of them. "Is she okay?" He nods "She'll be fine." "Good, how's Johanna?" "She's okay. She's just a little messed up in the head right now. She's on Morphling to relieve her some." That makes me sad to hear. One of my best friends on morphling. I didn't think about her not having anybody anymore. I realize how lucky I am. I have Finnick and Mags. She has nobody now.

I take notice of Katniss's family. Her mom and sister are mirror images of one another. Minus their eyes. Prim's are a hazel-brown kind of color her mothers blue. Katniss must get her looks from her father. Katniss's sister looks sad or scared maybe a mix of both.

"You must be Prim." I say to the younger girl. She nods with a small smile on her face. "I'm Daphne." I know she knows that. I don't know enough about this kid to keep conversation with her. "Daphne did you know they're training Prim to be a doctor?" Finnick joins in. Thank goodness. "Really? That's amazing! You must be really good." Her innocent smile grows. "Prim's very selfless. Katniss found their cat Buttercup in twelve and brought him back here. During the bombs Prim went back for him." That reminds me of something Ren would do.

Breakfast goes on. Prim and Finnick talk more than anything. I ate a few of the fruits. Not so much of the porridge. I notice Finnick keep glancing over. He nudges my knee with his trying to signal me to eat. I want to. Why does I am I scared to? It looks fine. It smells fine. Why can't I do this?

Finnick writes in my palm with his thumb. "Please try and eat." He writes. I move my my thumb to his. "I am I swear." He trusts this answer and continues eating. I move the porridge around with my spoon.

At least four bites for four. I try to tell myself. I get to three before I start to feel sick. I feel my face go more pale than it already is. I start sweating trying with everything in me to keep from throwing up. I need this food.

I think Finnick feels my hand go clammy. He looks at me. I nod an "I'm fine" to him. I am really..or I will be. One more bite come one Daphne. Just one. I do it. That's all I can do. I wont make it anymore. This is still a step for me. It's better than nothing. I know I can eat fruits. Porridge is just something I'll have to work on. Man do I have A LOT of things to work on right now.

AN- I want to give a small shoutout to kirishimaswife411 with sweet comments and messages about this series! it really means the world to hear :)