If we burn } Finnick Odair

Chapter 13 ~time~

Daphne's pov

Finnick and I walk back to our room. I haven't thought about Jezebel or Rowan at all. Nothing was said about them in the capital. What if they're dead? They probably are. Why does this happen? Why is the capital so cruel?

"Jezebel and Rowan?" Finnick's voice snaps me out of my thoughts. "Yeah." "It's okay. It's not your fault. They might still even be alive. I don't think either of them would like it here anyway. Too much grey." I chuckle. How does this man always know how to make me laugh even when I feel like I can't? We get changed and cleaned up before laying in bed.

"Wedding decor tomorrow." He says. "I'm so ready." "When we have our real wedding who all should we invite?" "Jo, Haymitch, I'd say Mags but she already lives in four. Katniss and Peeta. That's all I can think of unless Beetee would want to come too." "We have seriously no friends all of those people are family." I shrug. "It's what happens when you live in a world like ours I guess."

He kisses the side of my head.

"Can we invite Prim too? I think she'd want to see a wedding like that." "I agree we most definitely should." "I'm so happy doctors don't have to fight in the war. I'd feel awful if something happened to that sweet innocent girl."

I think Prim reminds Finnick and I of Ren. She reminds me of Sylvie too just because of her curiosity on romance. Ren couldn't have cared less. She was still way too young anyway. I was like that until I met Finnick. Now I can't even function without him. It's all about finding your right match or in other words soulmate. I know Finnick is mine and he knows I'm his; forever and always.

Finnick's pov

I feel as if every morning repeats itself. It wasn't like this in four. Daphne and I would either go for a run, play on the beach, watch the sunrise, you name it. Now we wake up bright and early everyday and live on District 13's schedule.

It's like our lives are no longer ours. Well truth be told they never really were. We're always being controlled whether it's by Snow and the capital or Coin and thirteen.

In all honesty? I don't trust Coin or thirteen, but I know they wont put Daphne or me back in the games or sell our bodies like Snow once did. I look next to her sleeping figure. She's peaceful. Another night nightmare free for the both of us. I hate to wake her because of this but we have a schedule we have to follow.

I kiss her temple watching as her eyes open sleepily. "Good morning." I smile. "Good morning." She says groggily. Neither of us are exactly MORNING people despite watching the sunrise. That's more of a once a week or "I had a nightmare and cant go back to sleep" thing for the two of us. I wouldn't say theres a pattern to who wakes up first. It just depends on the night.

Daphne snuggles up to me a little trying to fight off the morning chills I'm convinced everyone gets. That's a real thing right? You know the air automatically being a hundred times colder than what it was when you went to bed? I don't know maybe we're weird or something.

Daphne's pov

Needless to say this same routine everyday is absolutely destroying Finnick and I. The only thing that really changes is well planning our fake wedding.

I feel like the word fake is being overused. We got sick of saying act all these years. What else do you call it? Hoax wedding? Knock-off wedding? Pirate wedding? Ooh wait I like pirate wedding. We're from district 4 that's kind of fitting. Kidding...Kind of.

"So we need to discuss the decoration. We have these options." She shows us three pictures. The one that draws my eye is greenery. I nudge Finnick motioning for him to look at it to see what he thinks only to figure out he already is. "Greenery?" He asks. "Greenery."

"So it's settled. Daphne they want to fly you to District 12 tomorrow. Katniss offered up some of the wedding dresses she tried on for her wedding with Peeta. We can only offer up so much because of our situation." "That's perfect thank you for allowing this President Coin." I look over at Finnick. "You have no idea how much the means to us." He adds. "Of course. The both of you are helping us just by doing this." We nod a goodbye to her.

"I can't stand her." I say when the door closes. "Neither can I." "She's just like Snow. We're her pawns in her little game." It's true. It's as if our lives are a never-ending movie. We're always acting. We're always on camera. Someones always watching. Even if we do win this war will that ever stop? It has to right? They promised. They promised we'd be free from this.

Finnick's pov

You wont believe what's next. Training. In all honesty training would be so much better if we were outside. Katniss and her friend? Gale go hunting everyday just about. Daphne nor I have seen the true sun in.....well...good question.

I know constantly it's Daphne and I Daphne and I. But if we're being real I really worry about Mags. She hasn't seen the sun just as long as any of us. And what's bad about that it's making her weaker. She's fine. She's not sick. Daphne pointed this out to me at lunch. She noticed Mag's hands shaking a little more than usual.

Daphne's observation skills will never not amaze me. She reads people just as well as a book. I used to wonder if I should be terrified of the ability or insanely amazed. There's no secrets between us so I most definitely am amazed.

Daphne's pov

Training in a way I can't tell if it makes me more tired or less tired everyday. It's tiring to even exist here. Putting this on my list of things I hate about Snow. Finally fighting against his rules but have to live here in the process. Finnick and I spend the evening in our room. "Are you excited to dress shop?" "I guess. I mean it means I see the actual sun. I wish they'd let you come with us." "It's wedding rules it's okay. After the war we'll have everyday in the sun. We wont have to worry about being underground ever again." "I don't know Finn Coin seems like the type to do something like Snow and destroy a district or two."

He snickers. "You're not wrong." A moment of silence.

"I think I'm gonna ask Mags to go. She needs to see the sun." "I agree. I think it'll lift her spirits some." "Aww Mags can help with dress shopping twice! The pretend wedding and the real one!"

Another plan Finnick and I had was for Mags to be the flower girl. Originally it was going to be her and Ren but..yeah I don't want to go into detail there. It's still a sensitive topic and it's been what three years? Jeez was it really that short while ago? Time is a weird thing. It can fly and go by slow. It sometimes feels like Ren is still here. Like we just seen her yesterday. But at the same time it feels like a decade since we heard her sweet youthful voice.

"What are you thinking about?" "Time." "Time?" "How something can feel so recent but such a long time ago at the same time. It's such a sacred thing that nobody recognizes often until it's all up. It's always taken for granted. I feel like we're just wasting our lives away being stuck down here. As much as I hate to say it I just want to hurry and go to battle. At least it wont feel repetitive every single second of every single day."

Finnick grabs my hand squeezing it.
I know he agrees.

Finnick's pov

The thing Daphne said about time really gives me something to think about. I know she's right but that's the thing she IS right. We're stuck down here reliving the same days everyday wasting time that we take for granted. I notice her eyes grow heavy. I motion for her to come closer to me. She snuggles her head into the crook of my neck. "Finnick" her breath makes goosebumps appear on my arms. "Yes?" "I love you. Thank you for wanting me to win that stupid game." I smile. "I wouldn't have wanted to spend our eight years together any other way."

AN- i know it's been forever. but when i tell y'all i've had test after test. it's not even funny at this point like 6 in a week?? and more next week? anyway. i know this chapter kind of sucks. like bad. but i have a plan.