*＊✿❀LO'AK | fallen angel❀✿＊*

twenty five

clouds pov | 4:44 am |
i've been conscious this whole time of what's been said around me. they're so much nicer than the sky people were. the mothers prayed for me. the men made sure never to hurt me. the kids cried for me. but i'm alone right now.

after my conversation with eywa i thought for sure my soul would be gone. exploded into bits and pieces for lo'ak and neytiri to constantly find.

what jake said sat with me. the sound of defeat laced in between this words. overdosing on the pain, he must've said it in the moment.

laying on my back, bandaged up all around my wings to stop the bleeding. suddenly, so so suddenly.
i feel my bones shift, i feel my back begin to rip.
i start screaming, it hurts. it's so so painful. more painful than anything i've ever felt in my life.
screaming out
i couldn't stop.
stay with me, cloud. eywa speaks.
i sit up, gripping my legs. i can feel the wings being called from my back. slowly but surely. feathers start falling in my face, blood puddles around me again.
"EYWA MAKE IT STOP SOMEONE MAKE IT STOP" i call out to her.
my heart desperate.

there was a time before in which i thought eywa was playing some sick and twisted joke on me. she made my existence to give her a good laugh. but here i am. in the worst possible pain of my life. perhaps i've always wanted to call out to her. but never felt like she would answer.

perhaps i thought she was mad at me for things i could not control.
it all goes dark, but then, it's like i can see myself. my soul has been taken from my physical form.
she's still screaming but i can't feel the pain. i do feel the presence of eywa. not turning to look at her. she holds my soul in her.

i made you. i know everything, more than anyone. cloud faye, my daughter, my love. i was never mad.

i've always been waiting.
oh what a woman you've become.

overwhelming joy. bliss fills me up. suddenly the screaming stops. i'm face down on the floor. i see the feet of others in the hut now. i've knocked down the walls to the hut. the bleeding has stopped. the pain has gone away.

my wings, outstretched. white, gorgeous wings.
holy shit.
—
i stand looking at the people, in disbelief. i see turn to hear the clan scatter.
"sorry! i haven't had them for a while." i joke to them.
"no no! it's okay." they assure me.
—
i see jake. lo'ak standing behind him.
"you stayed!" jake yells.
he's about 100 yards away from me. i go to run into his arms. suddenly taking flight to him.
oh my god. i never got to fly before.
falling in front of him i laugh. he does too.
tears in our eyes.
"you're so beautiful, cloud." he says.
i suddenly feel lo'ak rubbing my wings.
i turn to him.

"my angel."
"in every lifetime, i stay with you."
—
- vbelle (when i say universe i mean eywa!)