*＊✿❀LO'AK | fallen angel❀✿＊*

twelve

your pov |
maybe i messed up, but i couldn't tell them what i did.. that would've messed everything up. i feel perverted, and they wouldn't understand. it's about to be morning and i haven't slept, i sit up. hearing my bed creek under me. wondering how i can fix this with lo'ak. i don't want him to be upset with me.

his parents would take his side, i mean, i think.
standing up to stretch i feel light headed, suddenly feeling indifferent.
rubbing my eyes to wake up more, i see very clearly an emotional lo'ak in front of me. his face switches from mad, to sad, to frustrated. it's like we both want to say something.

these moments always happen with him, too. like we want to say something, like there's something profound about us. maybe it's just a random feeling. but the way he looks at me, it's - thrilling. - it's hearing your favorite song all over again. - it's rewatching your favorite moment and laughing all over again at your favorite parts. -

but maybe i'm the only one that feels that way... i'm lost in thought. i can tell the way he's looking at me.
"ok, i'm sorry." i swallow my pride and questioning feelings for him.
"me too, i understand you need space." he drops his shoulders.

"i just needed some time alone, you know? but i understand why you got scared, and i'm sorry for reacting how i did." i say truthfully.

"thank you for that. i should've been more easy on you. i'm sorry." he scratches the back of his head.

"me too. i'm sorry. lo'ak."
something special happened in this moment. colors faded away and all i saw his lo'ak in bright blue. my first time saying his name, my first time, really understanding how his name rolled off my tongue. to me it felt special.
i awkwardly look at him, popping my hip.
he does the same.
"are you lovebirds done yet?" neteyam chimes in.
thank you.

lo'aks pov:
it felt special to me too, cloud.

- vbelle | please drink some water and let me know if you're enjoying it!