Desire • Avian Journal 1

Sweden [1]

My dreams lead me to learn how to fly, how it would feel.

Even before the subliminals there would be some dreams were I could do something like flying, this thing go in stages that somehow I unlocked in the years.

If I could tell you a recurrent dream when I was a kid, well, I would tell you a nightmare, because I got one so many times that I learned how to scape, even if its not really "lucid dreaming".

Coming back to the topic, the first thing related to flying in my dreams was when I somehow learned one of the powers of Steven Universe, yeah, getting protagonist powers lol.

It was the levitation-like Steven power, making a big jump and fall slowly, this thing would appear more in dreams were my "life" was in danger, definitely could jump like 5 times my height and fall as slow as a feather, the emotion and the begging of this I would feel "butterflies" in my stomach because I was nervous/scared of the height and I falling, by the time I got used to it, still having some trouble with the real falling.

The next dream with flying related was a dream were I would fly in a broom like a witch, I think that could help me to experiment how would be the wind when flying at a great speed, it was fun, but it flying in dreams with a broom it's really hard because of the speed.

Other dreams would let me fly if I imitated the movement of the wings with my arms, and then do a jump so I could start flying, but it was not at s really big height due to i didn't had so much force, and eventually I would need rest my arms.

After many time with dreams like that, one day I got the opportunity to get a lucid dream, and I wanted have wings, I got wings, and I flied, with wings like a dragon I got to a really, but really high height, everything below be looking like ants, my wings were no automatic making the fly, it was ME, and that make me happy, it was so vivid that dream, that u would love experiment that again, and again.

Wings feel like a second pair of arms, it was strange at first because of that, but the views are the best when you're at the sky, looking down to everyone, that dream make me feel complete. I decided look and found subliminals, so here I am, a desperate kid trying to get wings even after had months to know the positive and negative things about it. I don't care if I could have wings and not fly, at least I want wings.