Desire • Avian Journal 1

Days [4]

March 29
[I'm old /j]
So yeah, basically by back as been hurting a lot. At least of what I consider like hurt a lot because I'm most of the day like a shrimp 🦐 and it doesn't hurt like that. It's not so painful like a cramp so it's not like painful painful.
Very uncomfortable using my backpack on my back, so I have to use it on the front. I been feeling so much more sleepy, but at least I have to survive until tomorrow so I can finally have like 2 weeks free of school.
A lot of phantom wings, sometimes for some reason also phantom arms(usually when I'm trying to look for something) .
Also I been trying to do exercise in my room, maybe I should move more, I get tired so fucking easy 😭

Also I been feeling more hungry, like, literally hearing my stomach, something that never happens because the last time I knew I was hungry was because I was feeling physically bad (It was a photo session for my XV birthday)

Also I found an app for survival on play store :D

March 30
Pain, definitely a little more pain than yesterday, it's uncomfortable lay in my back, still, try to use my backpack as a normal person it's more uncomfortable than lay down in my back. I still experimenting what type of things go better to me, but I'm trying manifesting and energy manipulation with meditation. I have 2 weeks of vacations so expect me to have more updates of this.

March 31
I tried some boosters and some other subliminals, definitely I felt some shit going

April 1-2
Fucking shit my back hurts more, day was normal until I got into my sleep clothes 😭😭😭
My back (like in my shoulder blades) it's hurting, add boosters was good, i think-
Definitely more painful than the past days, enough to say "this is painful" but I think it still something that can be ignored, so in my pain scale it's a 3 of 10.

Phantom wings✅
Drank water ✅

April 4
[Dreaming]

Yooo people I got a cool dream, so in summary of the important story of it was
Like 10-12 guardians protection idk who but we have magic and shit like that, and then the person who apparently we needed to protect said that I could be killed by the others of the group because I was the one who was more weak (but at least I had a lot more HP than the others) and the one who killed me could have my HP or something like that.
So I obviously was mad because of that so I scape, flying.
Because apparently like only 2 of the people there we could actually fly, I don't know if I had wings, because in my dreams it's very strange I can see how the other people in my dreams see me(like the time I dreamed I was a dragon, it was strange how I look to myself without clothes and still looking human, but other people I wasn't even human, I looked big and the general appearance of a dragon) so after defeat some of the other people and I wasn't even in the 5 guardian when it was getting difficult attack, and then see, that the next one who was trying to kill me, was more fast than me AND could FLY, I was like " HELL NAH " so i tried to fly again to scape to a safer place for me, that woman was definitely more fast than me, because for me in my view I was more like floating, using a "skill" to go a little more fast, but bro didn't kill me when she was almost fucking getting me, but she said "you taught me how to fly" and my mind finally got the shit together to move my arms like wings to get more speed, I ended up crashing with a wall, no pain immediately in the dream, but when I wake up yes my head was hurting a lot for like an hour, I didn't really woke up when I crashed in the wall trying to turn right, I actually woke a bit after that.
This is not the complete dream, it just a summary of what happened there.

Have a good day, night, or evening and drink water y'all
See y'all later

-VoidKid out