April 5
I woke up with phantom wings, currently no pain, using visualization and trying energy manipulation
April 7
Currently not at home, so I can't really listen to the subliminals. Hell phantom wings at been crazy happening(morning)
Please I can feel my wings being pressed in my back, definitely uncomfortable to lay, or just sit normally, I still can feel sometimes me covering myself with my wings, move them feels as natural as move any part of my body, the same way as my arms move.
April 8
Still, strong and constant phantom wings. I will give an update when something more interesting happens.
Late April 8 / early April 9
So I was talking to my luv, and all the time, ALL THE TIME y could feel my wings moving, fluffing and Stimming, my wings moving, and my tail moving slightly, just of happiness of heard her, and have some time together in a call. I can still feeling my wings. I would love stay with my sweetheart forever.
April 11
Heavy phantom wings and phantom tail, I swear I can feel how my feathers, and everything feels on my wings, the wind, the space, the water, the weight, and maybe even the energy around my body because of that
April 13
[almost 2 am] got some stabbing type of pain, definitely it was more painful than other days, it come alongside the feeling of something inside me moving, maybe I'm hallucinating but who knows, just I know I got some stabbing type of pain, like a 5/10 this time, but the pain was there for less of 5 minutes, like on the middle of my back.
April 14
[1:22am] got some pain for seconds, the stabbing type of pain 6/10, I got it a little bit more down since I'm on my period and probably sick so maybe I'm feeling it more intense than actually was
April 16
[1:39 am] HOLY FUCKING SHIT GOT A PAIN OF AT LEAST 8/10, damn my whole back was hurting a lot, like, A LOT, enough intense to only focus on it, but not enough as other paints I have had in my life, so, everything below 10 in my scale it's like, "hurts? Yes" "can I stand it? Yes" so if someday I put something above 10 you guys know it was painful enough for me wanting it to stop rn.
April 18
Stabbing pain, but maybe it was due to stress, there's a metting of parents this Friday about our grades
April 26
The most intense pain at the moment, 11/10 at least, I would put a bigger number but it don't think it lasted more than a minute, bit it lasted enough to actually thinking there was a small possibility that I was dying, and strong enough to not wanting move my body or even breathe, o been making my bed like a "nest", I also been seeing a lot of angel numbers lately. In general feeling tired lately. Also I had phantom wings today, like, I actually felt something moving like my arm, but I didn't move my arm, and I was more conscious about doing this movement
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Desire • Avian Journal 1
SpiritualHello, hope you enjoy the reading of my experiences and investigations I'm a kid, maybe I will grown up of this, maybe I will not, but please respect my beliefs.
