Hey yall, This is going to be a book on greys and station 19 imagines so let me know any suggestions. I am opend to doing a family imagines on any couple in the greys universe exept burke. hate him. anyway let me know!!!!
summary: Y/n deals with some self harm and her parents help her through it
AN: major TW on this one if you don't feel comfortable please do not read this one also remember that if you are struggling with self harm or thoughts please talk to someone or reach out to the many resources out there you can always msg me as well if you need any help I'll put a *** where I describe the self harm so if you need you can skip over it
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Pain That's what they call it but do they really know the extent of that pain the feeling where you can feel it physically build up in your brain. To the point where you feel like you could over flow. Like there is only one way to release that pain only one way to release that pressure in your body. My parents are surgeons so I always heard about the feeling of that first cut . I just didn't think that it was real until that pain that feeling got so much and so big it felt like a weight on my chest. Even if that one cut could release all that pain even for a split second. I was willing to try anything at that point. I knew my parents wouldn't lie about the great feeling after that one cut I just don't think this is how the meant it.
"Y/n! It's 1pm get up we need your help with Harriet" April yelled to her daughter from down the hall. "Coming mom" I say as I push myself out of bed over to my vanity. "Y/n we told you to clean your room this is disgusting god" you dad says to you as he walks over to your blinds and open them "dad can you just leave me alone please" you whine "I would but all you do is sleep your life away if you wanna be a surgeo-" "I know you have to work hard every day for the rest of your life I know dad trust me you never let me forget it" you cut him off "just don't want you to realise when it's to late hon" he says closing you door as you nod your head. Once the door shuts you drop your head your hands exhaling. You walk over to your bathroom and turn on the shower stripping out of your oversized tshirt and small shorts as you wait for the shower for it to heat up you look over at your body in the mirror you didn't hate your body but like everyone you had your insecurities. **************************************** You step into the steaming shower taking in the feeling of the hot water on your skin hissing as the water makes contact with parts of your body. You must have got lost in your thoughts cause a few minutes later you see some faint red hair making it's way over to you reaching for the handle turning the water to the cold setting. "You trying to burn yourself Y/n that water is way to hot you have steamed up the bathroom and some of your room it's bad to have showers that hot hon turn it down ok." She's says giving a syphthetic look walking out of the bathroom oblivious to the fact that burning yourself was the aim of the shower
You make your way out of the shower as you feet come in contact with the cold tiles you wrap a towel around you lock the door while sinking down onto the cool tiles **************************************** You open the draw under the sink in your bathroom and grab your blade. This is the only way you have been able to let that release of all that pain all that pressure go. You know that's bac but the pain just feels worse so it feels like an alternative to all the pain is to feel some more pain but only for a little bit. You pull your towel up a tiny bit and remove the bandaids from you previous cuts from a while ago.you start making small cuts around your inner thighs watching the blood drip down from the fresh cuts. You hiss each time the blade comes in contact with your warm skin but then feel relieved as you see the blood pool reminding yourself that your still human and are still there sometimes you cut to relive the pain and others you cut for almost a reality check to let you know your still physically there.Nyoman make around 6 small cuts 3 in each leg. You then grab the bandaids from your draw tending to your blood stained thighs
"Y/n hurry up get out of the shower" your dad yells from your room "coming!" You yell as you get dressed into jumper and sweatpants "morning" you say as you make your way over to grab an Apple "we will be home in about 2 hours can you watch Harriet" you mum says grabbing her bag kissing yours and your little sister foreheads. "Sure bye mum bye dad" you wave to your parents as the walk out of the
"Jackson do you think Y/n has been acting different" April, asks her husband as they drive to work "a little bit a lot more closed off spending lots of time on her own. I'm sure it's nothing to be concerned about tho" he says April nods
Time skip: 3 hours later
**************************************** "Y/n come say goodnight to Harriet she's doing that cute baby voice with her puppy dog eyes" april says making her way over to the bathroom door "Y/n you alright in there hun" "fine mum I'll be out in a sec" you say rushing to clean up the blood pooling around your thighs this time you cut around 5 more but you bumped your hand with your leg as you where cutting and cut to deep so you have been applying pressure for the past 5 minutes but nothing seems to be working you knew you had to ask your mum to help but you didn't want to. "Mum I uh need your help but you have to promise not to get mad ok" "what's wrong Y/n" "promise me""I promise just let me in" you unlock the door waiting for her shocked face but you were to light headed to care. April slowly walks in preparing herself for what she might see. She looks into the path room and gasped putting her hand over her mouth rushing over to her daughter with tears brimming at her eyes. "Oh Y/n honey i I'm so sorry I didn't know baby" April sobs "mum it hurts" you cry "Jackson! Get me some bandages a wash cloth and some medical tape fast!" She crys as she pull her daughter into her arms trying to calm her down as she applies pressure to her daughters thigh. Jackson runs in with all the supplies concerned on what it's for but he gasps as he sees the sight in front of him "oh sweetie no" he says as he rushes over to his wife and daughter. Jackson passes the supplies to April knowing that you would probably be more comfortable with April doing it. Meanwhile he comes over and holds you as you cry into his chest while April tends to your thigh . "Honey why didn't you tell us we could have helped you" "I didn't know what to say and once I had an idea it-" you sobbed "shh take your time hon" April said as she tends to your old scares "it got to bad for me to know how to tell you I'm sorry" you cry into your dads shirt as he rubs your back "it's ok hon you don't have to be sorry we can help you now" Jackson says pulling you close as your mum finished your cuts and she joins the hug "we love you so much you know that more than life itself ok" "thank you guys I love you to"
