Hey yall, This is going to be a book on greys and station 19 imagines so let me know any suggestions. I am opend to doing a family imagines on any couple in the greys universe exept burke. hate him. anyway let me know!!!!
Warnings: Swearing, body dysfomia, Eating disorder, talk of Bulimia
*Requested by a reader : so one where we're japrils daughter and we're really close with april but we start to pull away and be in our room whenever we don't have anything else to do. april gets worried and wonders why so she knocks on the door and finds us crying on our bathroom floor. she comforts us and calms us down and then we tell her that we really hate ourselves and how we look and our body and shit like that and she tells us that we're beautiful and tells us all the things she likes about us.
An: Please don't read if you are uncomfortable you with eating disorders because this chapter goes into depth about bulimia. And please reach out to somebody if you struggle with and type of eating disorder. Don't do this to your selfs lovelies cause your beautiful and amazing and I love you ❤️
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The human body. capable of amazing things. The human body is a amazing piece of art if you think about it. it keeps us alive keeps us well keeps us living and breathing. The heart pumps blood through the veins this blood sends oxygen and nutrients to all parts of your body, and carries away unwanted carbon dioxide and waste products. The limbs are a jointed, muscled appendage utilized for terrestrial mobility. Tetrapods use their limbs to support their body weight and perform activities like walking, running, jumping, swimming, grasping, and climbing. The stomach It takes food from the oesophagus (food pipe) and mixes and digests it before transferring little amounts of it to the small intestine. The brain is a complex organ that manages every bodily function as well as thought, memory, emotion, touch, motor skills, vision, respiration, temperature, and hunger. The central nervous system is made up of the spinal cord that emanates from the brain. the human body has more amazing features that keep you alive. But there is one downfall that the human body has. Well more specifically the brain. Self-consciousness. being self conscious is relatively normal belive it or not. But when it takes over your life thats where the problems start. insecurities are pretty normal in a teenagers years. Just another great thing to add to the list. But after a while it goes from being normal, to being abnormal, to doing things to help change the insecurities, then finally doing things that harm your body in the process all just to fix things you don't like about yourself.
I stood in front of my bathroom mirror moving round the skin of my body trying to make me look like the models on instagram. my noes was to big, my double chins showed, my boobs weren't big enough. Shoulders where to wide, I had a wide ribcage. my hip dips where obvious in tight clothing. My feet where to large, my thighs where to big, my back wasn't toned enough and my ass was to flat. And last of all my stomach was to fat. that was my biggest insecurity. it meant i could only where large clothing. nothing cropped or tight. The stray tears slip down my face as I look at myself in the mirror. 'knock knock' "honey you in there?" I hear my mom say from the other side of the door. "yep just a sec mom!" i said with a happy voice. I wipe my tears throwing my t-shirt back on and open the door with a smile on my face. "hey whats up?" I ask "dinners ready in 5, you ok?" she questions "yep all good. But I'm not hungry." i said. "come on it will be good for you to eat something ok?" "yeh ok" she nods leaving the bathroom doorway. I close the door and lock letting the tears flow as I sit on the bathroom floor and sob my dark brown eyes out.
aprils pov
"she coming down?"Jackson asks me as I make my way out of our daughters room. "Yeah she said she's not hungry but I told her she should come eat." he hums and looks away. "what?" "don't you notice she's been pulling away from meals and she's been more distant?" now that I think about it she has been. "uh yeah I have." "I don't know maybe she's just stressed or something but we should keep an eye on her." Jackson said walking over to me embracing me in his arms. I nod into his chest shutting my eyes.
Y/n pov
"gag" I said seeing my parents hugging as I walk down the stairs. they shook me a glare shaking their heads chuckling at me remark. "come on sit its pizza for dinner tonight" my dad said. we all sit down eating our food talking about our days. pretty normal conversation. we finish eating and i put my plate away then excuse myself to the bathroom. I hater doing this but some part of me made me feel like i needed to. I shove my fingers down my throat gagging till i throw-up. I flush the toilet leaning back on the bathroom wall. I cry I cry and I cry and I cry. For some reason I'm crying more than usual. I sob into my hands trying to be quiet so my mom doesn't hear me. That seemed to have not worked cause a few seconds later I feel to arms wrap around me. "Oh baby whats wrong?" I hear her say. "Nothing its fine" I dismissed "Baby come on you can tell me" she shushes my sobs. fuck it. "I hate myself mom I hate everything about me I hate how I look I hate my personality I hate it all." I sob harder. "Open your eyes dear, your beautiful okay. and I know it doesn't feel like that right now but you are. And don't ever say those things about my beautiful baby girl okay? I love you so much, we love you so much." she said I feel a few of her tears drop onto my shoulders. "I don't know how to stop it mommy" I sobbed "stop what?" she questions. "after I eat theres some need in me. some need in my brain to throw up after thats why I was in here." I sobbed. "Oh darling girl. Don't worry ok we will get you some help alright cause doing that is extremly bad for you ok? your body is a temple it is your home so don't waste your time worrying about how you look okay cause your body does so much for you and you need to give it that reward back. you need to take care of your self darling." she said calmly as she hugged me tighter. "I love you mom." "I love you to my baby girl."
AN: 2 updates in a week who is she? Please my lovely's if you are struggling with and type of disorder reach out to family friends local hotlines or even me. my dms are alway open to talk ❤️. let me know if you guys have any requests.
