Restricted (Michael Clifford)

'I hope you rot in hell!'

(Manip^^^)

Michael's POV

Everything felt like it was in slow motion. The bullet came out of the gun like it was afraid to fly fast. When her body fell to the floor bouncing up slightly before falling laying motionless. I let out scream's of 'No's as I saw her fall. The tears that left my eyes as I knelled down to the floor were uncontrollable.

"Zoe...Baby don't" I cried while pushing the hair that was hanging all over her face away "We promised we'd never leave each other" I cried harder.

"What a shame...She was a girl with such potential" Gavin said from behind me and I clenched my jaw then ran over to him.

"You killed her! She has bloody children and you killed her! I hope you rot in hell!" I screamed with my hands tightly around his throat. I could see his eyes were going white and his skin was turning pale.

"But you're not dead" His voice stuttered from the lack of oxygen.

I couldn't stop. I felt like I couldn't control myself no longer. He deserves to die not her. Zoe had such a bright future. We had children and a life planned. And know we can't fulfill any of that.

I deserve to be dead to.

What's the point in living if the person that made you smile every time you woke up is dead? Every time i'd wake up in the morning with a frown that today could be a bad day but then I look beside me and I see her sleeping so peacefully which brings a smile to my face. Everything she done or said made me smile. She would talk about such rubbish and i'd be listening to everything because I find it so adorable. She's adorable.

It was seconds later when Gavin had finally stopped all his breathing and fell to the floor.

Karma is a bitch.

I took a deep breath before walking over and picking her body up. I needed to get her back to England. We needed to have a proper funeral and as much as i'm nervous to do it. I need to tell her dad.

As I walked out I saw the boys with confused looks on their bruised, bloody and cut faces.

"Who the-Oh my god" Ashton said looking at her "We've only just became friends...I had things planned for us" He said but didn't cry.

"No...She's....T-the mum of our babies...She can't be" Luke stuttered with tears falling and Calum just stood shocked.

"We...I need to get her home..." I cried while shaking my head.

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After a few day we were finally back home. Everyone said it needed to have the children at home with me. I still haven't found time to tell Zoe's dad. In all honesty,i'm scared to see his reaction.

I sat on the sofa with a gun pointing in my mouth while crying as Lily and Amy played in the corner. Something Zoe always loved to watch. She loved watching them play and crawl around the place.

"I can't be without you" I mumbled at the photo on the coffee table of us when we went on holiday. She was smiling and I had my tongue sticking out. We was so happy back then. So clueless of what the future was going to bring us.

I let my grip tighten on the gun but when I felt a small tug on my skinny jeans I pulled it out.

When I looked down I saw Lily was holding her toy and showing it to me with a gummy smile.

"You're never going to really know how much of an amazing mum you had" I whispered to her "Neither of you will" I whispered once I picked Amy up.

"Michael! Where are you?" I heard Luke call.

"Here" I said and dried my eyes.

"How you holding up?" He asked and picked Amy up.

"My wife it dead" I said looking at the gun.

"And your plan was to kill yourself?" He raised his eyebrow at me.

"I loved her...I can't live without her" I cried again.

"So do I man...You know that...You think this is easy on me? On any of us? Dylan is blaming himself for not spending enough time at the hotel with her.

Just as I was about to answer, Lily began to cry and I groaned.

"What do you need?" I asked even though she can't talk.

"Food maybe?" Luke said and I sighed before getting up.

I pulled the powder that makes the milk out of the cupboard and looked at the instructions. Zoe always done these things. All I did was settle them into bed with a song.

"Zoe...I need you so much right now...Why can't you be here?" I whispered to myself.

I kept failing at trying to make it. I either put too much water in or too much powder in.

"For god sake!" I screamed and knocked everything onto the floor.

"Bro! Look...I'll stay here for a little while...We can help each other out. Since my baby does live here too...I can attempt a nappy change" He laughed slightly.

"Thanks...I'm glad I have you" I suddenly became soppy.

"We'll we're brothers...We've always been there for each other" He shrugged and hugged me.

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