Miracle- Noah Sebastian (SEQUEL TO THE GREY)

six

*Noah's POV*

I woke up feeling the pressure of her still cuddling me, making me wake up with a smile on my face. I brushed the hair away from her face and kissed her forehead, her stirring a little bit. I hugged her tighter to me; I don't think I will ever go a day without being convinced that I'm going to lose her again. She hugged me tighter, but I'm unsure if that means that she is awake now or not, since her breathing is still just as steady. 

I let my mind wander as she slept more. I thought about how intensely I feel about her; she knows how much I love her, but I'm not sure she knows how serious I am about everything. I don't know how she feels about things such as marriage, kids, moving in together, that kind of stuff, and I don't see a problem with talking about these things theoretically. I've always never minded the thought of not getting married, and like I already discussed with her, I'm okay with waiting for kids for a long time. I could literally move in with her right now and be happy with that choice, but I don't want to rush anything, plus she's not even settled into her place. 

Personally, I think that I'm so certain about her this time because of our history and what was pre-established, even if we did spend a good chunk of time apart. We seem to both be in much healthier spots mentally, as well, so that's a bonus. I like to think that we could have achieved that while still together, but the thought of her seeing me have my panic attacks makes my heart sink. When you're in love with someone, it's easy to focus on the good, but you have to remind yourself that this is the person that is also going to see you at your lowest of lows. I absentmindedly played with her, thinking about all of the things that could possibly hurt her, making my stomach twist more. 

She finally stirred awake, looking up at me while letting her eyes adjust to the light. I smiled at her, thinking about how pure moments like these are. She kissed me softly before cuddling back up to me. I wasn't going to bother her with my intrusive thoughts just yet, but I definitely want to talk about them. 

We got up after a while, deciding for both of us to go to her apartment since we both missed the animals. There was a couple of big IKEA boxes when we walked up. "Weird, I didn't expect it to get here so quick," she said with a chuckle. She unlocked the door and I helped her bring them in. I guess we have something to do today, after all. Jemma came up and sniffed the boxes curiously before focusing on me; I got down on her level and let her kiss my face and rub on me, my black hoodie covered in white dog hair now. Sutton just laughed at the sight, knowing how much Jemma missed me. 

Danielle came downstairs and gave me a hug; I hadn't seen her since I helped her move in. "How are you liking LA?" I asked nicely.

"I don't know, you keep stealing my adventure buddy," she poked at me.

"Awww, so sorry," I responded sarcastically. "We should all go back to Malibu together one day," I suggested. 

"That'd be sick," Danielle concurred, forgiving me for now. She went and found a knife, starting to open the IKEA boxes, probably also excited to have something to do. "How was Malibu?" she asked nicely.

"It's gorgeous," Sutton responded.

"I discovered she hates the ocean," I taunted, earning an ungrateful glare from her, which made me laugh.

"Why do you hate the ocean?" Danielle asked as she laid out all of the pieces of the table on the floor.

"Have you seen what all exists in the ocean? It's a death wish!" Sutton responded dramatically. 

"Honey, you were perfectly safe," I reminded her.

"I still don't like it," she responded stubbornly, making me chuckle at the predictability of her responses at this point. "But I will chill in the sand all day every day," she offered.