starlit mindscapes || poetry

☪ VII: twenty seconds

i'm moving on fast, like the afternoon train
and i don't miss kissing in the pouring rain
now, i sigh a breath of relief and slept
but every day i still think about you
death used to be at my doorstep
because my naive love was like a lethal flu

and back then, you'd flirt with him
still, you'd walk with her
while i'd starve to be slim
and i'd waste my time thinking about how to word my sentences
thinking that i'll be your forever 

because of you, i loathed eating lunch
who knew cupid's arrows could hurt so much?

now that my feelings are fading
and i'm skipping with the others, laughing
you'd look at me from afar and tall
and you'd search for my cupid footprint down the heartbroken hall

we will never grow old together, but i'll grow smarter, and wiser too
even though the planets and the stars aligned for signs to bestow
my fate was never to be with you
but to eventually let you go

and even though i don't think of you every day anymore
i'd sometimes wish you'd look at me for just twenty seconds
because i looked at you for twenty months

so i'll tell new people about our stories
while you shoot love arrows at your friends
does the smell of my perfume linger in your memories?
either way, i already know how this one ends