i see myself in the mirror
and i don't recognize the broken face
i've been trying to fit a mold that's not my own, in any case
i've been eating my food away
and when i don't, i feel dizzy every day
i know i'm not healthy, but i can't stop
i just want to be enough, to be on that mountaintop
will you even love me, because
i'm not a prom queen, with a perfect glow
will you accept me, with all my fears
and all the doubts that i have about myself?
i'm scared to eat, i'm scared to sleep
i'm scared that you only eat candied bodies
i'm scared that you won't love me, if you see
the real me, the one that's inside
the one that's struggling, with my own mind
so i'll keep fighting this battle within
and try to find the love that i deserve
and maybe someday i'll love myself again
and be the person that i was meant to be.
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starlit mindscapes || poetry
Poetrywe stay still and rot in our beds at midnight, overthinking about the choices we could have done different. we spend too much of our time in our thoughts, paint landscapes with the brush of our brain, and write fairytales with the quill of our eyes...
