Intoxicated By Your Love

Angelic Voice

Enzo

I need somebody to numb my pain, but I'm too afraid to be selfish again and take advantage of that person and hurt him just like I did with Mia.

That's why I was trying to avoid Lydia, I'm frightened of being able to hurt her as long as it's my jinx to break people, I knew Lydia as a hyper girl with a smiley face and great energy, and I will hate myself if I ruined that. I can't let anyone get inside my life again, because we will be on a boat and we'll get lost in the sea of my dejection and I'll make us drown.

I DON'T WANT TO HURT ANYONE ANYMORE.

I go to our practising room and I hear Lydia singing, so I stand outside leaning on the wall so that she can't see me and I don't interrupt her. She is singing "Dandelions" by Ruth B.
Lydia's voice is seraphic and it matches her innocent appearance, she hit the high notes of the last part perfectly even better than the singer, as if she is feeling the song.

Her voice got me goosebumps it travelled me to a garden filled with different flowers, the soft wind caresses my skin, and I inhale the scent of the Mimosa flowers that were able to attract my nose over the other thousands.

I hear her singing for the first time and I admit she has the prettiest voice that I ever heard.

I walk inside the room quietly, she was organizing the instruments and the notes while she was singing, she always comes early to do that job.

She stops as she sees me standing at the door, her face is turning red, and she takes the papers in her hands and she puts them on the desk nervously.

I take my guitar out and I take my position and then she asks me.
"When did you arrive?". She is wondering to know whether I heard her singing from the beginning to the end, so I let her know that I have just arrived so that she can calm down because it was clear that she is feeling embarrassed nevertheless there was nothing to be embarrassed by, and then she explains to me that no one ever heard her sing off stage, and she gets shy when she sings alone with no melody.

"You have a beautiful voice, now I get why you're the main singer". I say.
"Then, what did you think the reason was at first?". She asks with a scolding tone.
"I thought you got your position because of your beauty". I answer and then I look at her and she's staring at me with widened eyes blinking wobbly.

"Why are you looking at me like that ?". I ask.
"I don't know whether to be happy because you called me beautiful or upset because you thought that I  had no talent". She answers.

"None of them". I tell her and then I add that she doesn't need to take me as a measure for her emotions, she mustn't care about my words, I have no right to judge her and I'm not the person who will determine whether she has talent or not and whether she is beautiful or not, she lives for herself not to satisfy the others or care about what they will think about her.

Silence.

No one of us talks, she's twirling her golden hair and humming the melody of "Dandelions" While I'm tuning my guitar, and then I play some notes to warm up my fingers.
I'm playing my hymn while she gazes at me.

I finish it and she sighs in admiration, she asks me about its name, and I tell her that it was something I made up now.

" I like the guitar, it's an instrument that allows you to express any emotion, whether it's happiness, sadness or anger". She says.

The rest of the class comes and cuts the awkward silence that existed after she finished speaking.

We work on the song that we will be performing in our competition against the other Universities, and without noticing I couldn't take my eyes off Lydia the whole time, I'm stunned by her vocals.

We finish our practice, and I follow Lydia out after I put my guitar on my back.

"Will you throw a party tonight?". I ask her.
"Do you want us to throw a party?". She suggests.
Part of me wants to play kiss or drink again but, the other part is warning me about the consequences of playing it one more time, and I prefer to listen to the second one.

"I just asked to tell you if you'll be throwing one I won't be able to join". I say as if I have an important thing I will be doing tonight.
"Ok, I'll tell them". She affirms smiling and then she starts walking away but I grab her back by her arm and I wonder why she didn't ask me about the reason, and she says that as long as it's none of her business there's no need to ask.

The Lydia that I knew was a curious girl who likes to talk the whole time, but this Lydia is different she is quiet, she used to be like a stormy sea but now she is like a barren desert.

Why is she acting cold?