Intoxicated By Your Love

Mia Is my Ex-girlfriend

Enzo

The game is over, I stand up and go to sit under my tree, lighting a cigarette, and trying to understand why I kissed Lydia.

I am the one who said that she needs to stay away from me, then why I kissed her? My body moved on its own, and my lips reached hers without taking my permission.

I'm not falling for you Lydia, I won't, I mustn't.

Lydia sits next to me, so I put the cigarette away so the smoke doesn't reach her.

She will talk about the kiss, it's obvious, she's sitting holding her legs to her chest, and looking at the ground, she clears her throat and asks.
"Why did you kiss me if you already took the drink?".
"I guess the question that you wanted to ask is, what came to your mind first?". I say, and then I titch my cigarette on the ground.

She smiles and nods her head moaning a sound that means yes.

I take time to think about what I will answer her because I don't even know what came to my mind first too.

I didn't have any intention to kiss anyone in the first place, but I thought that they will talk behind my back, wondering why I kissed no one so I decided to kiss whoever the next one will be, and when it turned out that it was Lydia's turn so I took the drink, but then I started thinking what if the game ends without kissing anyone so I preferred to not waste the chance and I kissed her. That's what I tell Lydia.
"So if it was another girl you would have kissed her, without hesitation". She says making a fake smile.

I don't want to get into that conversation any further because I'm sure that it will end with me breaking her heart, and Lydia doesn't deserve that. I'm in a mess my feelings are perplexed, and Lydia is making me confused. I said that I'm here to focus on my career but she ruined everything, I started to think about her a lot I was even curious about her lips. What would it be like to kiss the most wanted girl in the university?

I need to stop thinking I must get her out of my mind, yes I'm going to ask her to stay away from me politely I need to clear everything between us.

I stand and I turn to look at her offering her my hand.
"Wanna go for a walk". I ask her and she looks at me surprised.
"I thought that you hate me". She says as a reason for her surprise.

I DON'T HATE YOU LYDIA, I JUST DON'T WANT TO BREAK YOU.

We walk for a long while and Lydia kept talking the whole time without stopping.
"Why did you move here?". She asks.
That's the question that I was waiting to be asked since I arrived here but I think no one was really curious about the reason, or my past life, except Lydia.
" I run from my past, I couldn't stay there any longer, if I did I wouldn't be able to get myself out of that darkness".
" Is it a past that even your girlfriend can't fix it? ".
" I don't have a girlfriend ". I reply.
"What about Mia?". She asks and stops walking.
"Mia is my dead ex-girlfriend". I turn and answer her, and then I start walking, wondering how does she know about Mia?
I have never talked to Lydia before now, and I've never told anyone about my past.

While I'm processing everything in my mind, I turn around to ask Lydia if she has ever known the girl with Linda's fake profile considering that she was the only one who saw my pictures but she is already gone, she just left without saying anything.