25th December 2014
Dear Diary,
Mum bought you for my birthday, which was yesterday. I got plenty of other presents from my family but my favourite is the one Harry gave to me. It's a bracelet with a half moon, a heart and little rocket ship. He knows how much I love space and astronomy, and I promised him I'd wear it every single day. I'm in my room right now, and I'm wearing it. I can see the dark sky outside, because my desk is in front of my large window, and I can't help but stare at the stars. I look at the full moon, and wonder how it would feel to be on it, to touch the ground. I wonder what the fabric of the astronaut's uniforms would feel like under my hands, if I would be as amazed as I think I'd be.
I'm sorry, diary - I'm getting lost in my thoughts. It's almost midnight and I'm getting tired, and my thoughts are getting wilder, my imagination is crazy at this time of the day. Well, at this time of the night. I'm also over-thinking, and that's why I think I'm going to like you. Because, you know, I will finally be able to write all of my thoughts down. Almost all of them are about Harry, because, even though I wish I didn't, I have feelings for him. I like him, a lot, maybe I even love him! And if my father ever finds out, he will kill me. I am not overreacting, hell no, I'm not. His parents were the same, his whole family is the same. When he found out his cousin was gay... He didn't talk to him for years, and when my mum told him he killed himself, he laughed. He laughed! It was his closest cousin when they were kids. So, imagine if I, the little shy son, was gay. He'd shot me, while looking at me in the eyes, with a sick smile on his face. I know it.
Mum didn't tell him she bought me this journal. She is the only one knowing I have you, and I'm so grateful. I know she isn't in love with dad, I know she's only with him because she's afraid of him. And I love her so much, my little mummy. I think she knows that I have a huge crush on Harry, I think she figured it out... She never said anything about it. If she left us, I wouldn't be alive any more. We both know that, that's the second reason why she's not getting a divorce. She loves me, more than anything.
I think dad is coming. Keep my secrets safe.
Louis. x
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louis' diary // larry stylinson au
Hayran Kurgu❝Imagine if I, the little shy son, was gay. He'd shoot me, while looking at me in the eyes, with a sick smile on his face. I know it.❞ Louis is in love with his best friend Harry, so he writes about him in his secret diary. all rights reserved © 201...
