✧A Love So Wrong✧ •Jikook•(Slow Updates)

Twenty Five

Song inspo for this chapter: Rewrite the stars by James Arthur and Annie Marie

Jimin had decided to extend his leaves for a few more days. He was tired if he's being honest. Jet lag is a real thing when it comes to him and he was not really in the mood to work.

Tomorrow he will be back in the office but he's still not feeling ready to face his work or Jungkook.

His mind is as tired as his body and everything is too messed up inside him. Jungkook's drunk 'sort of confession' is not easy to just let go, especially when his own thoughts are wandering in all the directions.

He is confused. Whatever is going on is certainly not right, he knows that, but he's only a human and the what ifs are a normal turmoil when it comes to humans.

What if he met Jungkook years ago when the man was still not married. Would they have still felt what they are feeling right now?

What if this is just a temporary infactuation? An outcome of spending time together when they were both lonely.

What if he is only attracted to Jungkook because he's the kind of guy anyone can fall for and yes, Jungkook is married but that doesn't mean Jimin is in that kind of commitment.

That's not true. I'm with Eunwoo!

He gasps at that thought. He's never really thought this way. He was sure someday in the future he'll confess to Eunwoo and then they'll get married in Vegas and come back to Korea and live happily ever after. But now that desire seems like a faded memory.

What if he's never been able to say I love you to Eunwoo because he's never been in love with him and it is just the same situation as Jungkook's marriage with Nancy?

Jungkook had told him how he never questioned his decision to marry Nancy because of his friendship with her. Their parents were sure of them and Jungkook had no reason to deny it. He didn't have anyone else in his life to think about for not marrying her and living his life his own way instead.

What if Jimin didn't have a reason to contemplate his relationship with Eunwoo until now and he was so sure of his future with Eunwoo because that's all he had known until now.

What if the reason for the sudden realisation that Jimin might not be in love with Eunwoo is Jungkook, and Jimin is realising it now?

What if he loves Jungkook despite being it utterly and entirely wrong?

His heart skips a beat at this what if and he shakes his head like a maniac.

"No! No, no no! This can't be possible! This shouldn't be possible!"  He hides his face between the pillow and screams his lungs out in frustration which was muffled because of the pillow.

Jungkook is married for God sake!

"I will loose my mind at this rate!" He shouts and throws all the extra pillows here and there. His room was as messed up as his mind.

The tears in his eyes finally fell on his cheeks and he decided to not hold it in and cry.

The confusion has now taken a face of guilt and he's not sure he can stop crying all night.

No matter what he feels or thinks, this realisation of not being in love with Eunwoo, the epiphany that he'll never really love Eunwoo in the way he's feeling for Jungkook right now is making him feel guilty.

He throws the last pillow on the door of his bedroom when it opens up and Eunwoo is struck with it right in the face.

"Ow! What did I do?" Eunwoo says in a playful voice and a smile but as soon as he sees Jimin's face the smile is wiped off his face and he's beside his boyfriend in blink of an eye.