✧A Love So Wrong✧ •Jikook•(Slow Updates)

Thirty Two (Special Chapter with Eunwoo's POV)

The night came and went, the dawn hitting the windows. It is said that every new day brings hope with the first ray of light. That when the sun comes up, it gives hope and a chance to chase happiness again.

Eunwoo is unable to see it though. The hope. The light. It just doesn't feel real at the moment.

He stayed up all night, looking at the beautiful man sleeping in his arms so peacefully like nothing has changed in his life. Like he's not torn Eunwoo's life apart.

Eunwoo has loved Jimin since the first day he saw him. He was sitting in a local restaurant laughing with his friends and eating his food while a little girl with torn dress and dirt decorating her soft features was looking at their food from the outside of the restaurant.

Eunwoo was surely enraptured by the beauty that Jimin is but his heart went away when he saw Jimin asking the little girl to come inside and then he made her sit beside him, cleaned her hand and face with wet tissue and order her requested food.

The girl looked so happy but Jimin was smiling even more to see the girl happy and Eunwoo lost himself that day to Jimin.

From that day onwards, he was always searching for Jimin around him, giving him flowers and choclates to win his heart.

It took around three months for Jimin to finally say yes to their first date and after meeting him officially, Eunwoo decided that he's head over heals in love with this beautiful human.

In their two years of relationship Jimin never said that he loved Eunwoo because the word love meant so much to Jimin. But Eunwoo never felt the urge to force him into feeling anything. How can he ever force anything on Jimin?

He was confident that one day, Jimin will love him back. He had decided the whole plan to propose him and marry him the old traditional way in Iceland because of the LGBTQ being legal there. He never wanted to elope with him. He wanted everyone Jimin loved and cherished to witness their wedding.

He had also decided their honeymoon destination. Jimin loves Harry Potter like a maniac and Eunwoo wanted to take him to London and make his Hogwarts dream come true even if he's not a big fan of Harry Potter himself.

For some reason, there was not a single moment after meeting Jimin where Eunwoo had imagined a life without him. He always saw them getting old together and having a beautiful house in Iceland, two dogs, two cats and two beautiful adopted kids.

The idea of a house in Iceland was because Jimin loves winter so Eunwoo wanted to give him that. He preferred summer but it didn't matter.

Nothing mattered when it came to Jimin. He used to work hard so that Jimin never lacked anything. If he could, he would've given the moon and stars to Jimin.

Now that he's looking at Jimin in his arms, all his wishes, all the memories and all the things he will never get to do with Jimin is breaking his heart into million pieces.

How is he supposed to live now? There won't be anything in his life other than his work. Who will he come back home to?

He looks at Jimin, he's blurry because of the tears and Eunwoo doesn't like that so he wipes his tears away and then stares at him. His beautiful Jimin. He caresses his soft cheeks and Jimin snuggles into Eunwoo's chest a little more, his lips making that pout Eunwoo loves to see every night. The same face he'll not get to see from now on.

"Is there no way I can make you love me?" He mumbles softly. He bends a little and kisses on his forehead not able to control his tears.

"Please don't leave me baby." He sniffs, kissing Jimin and pulling him in to his chest. "I love you. I love you so much that it even hurts to think of you loving someone else."

"Can't I be selfish?" He speaks to himself looking at Jimin's sleeping figure and sobbing even harder. "Can't I keep you for myself and love you and grow old with you like I always intended to do?"

"I don't want to let you go baby." He says kissing Jimin's face softly. His cheeks, his nose, his closed eyes, his lips. His forehead.

"It's morning, Jimin." He hiccups. "It's already morning baby. I am not ready to let to you go. I'll never be ready."

"But it doesn't matter." He says. "It doesn't matter if I'm not ready. I have to let you go." He then looks at him one last time, pulling him in for a hug before laying him down on the pillow and covering him with a blanket. He loves winter but can never sleep without blankets. "Your happiness is so much more important to me than my feelings for you."

He turns around, wipes his face and walks towards the living room, his heart screaming at him to turn around and go back to him. His eyes begging him to look at him one last time.

He takes the notepad and write his last words as a lover to Jimin. He'll never be able to cut off Jimin for good. He'll always be his friend. But this goodbye note is necessary for his heart.

So he writes it. He writes his last message to Jimin as his lover.

Hi baby,

I'm leaving before you wake up because if I see you awake, I'm not sure I'll be able to let you go. I'm going to Paris. I had some work there later this week but I decided to go early. I am writing this note to you because I don't think I'll be able to talk to you until I'm back to myself. I may not be your lover now, but just so you know I'll mention it here. You will always have me as your friend. I am so glad that you didn't tell me the name yesterday or I'm not sure I would have not went and punched him in the face for taking you away from me. So thank you. I'll still punch him when I'm okay and ready to face you again and you introduce him to me once I'm back.
It's inevitable.

......I love you baby. I will always love you. Like I said yesterday, loving you as half is still better than loving anyone else as a whole. You will always be a part of my heart, Jimin. And maybe this is stupid of me to say, but you can always come back to me. I'll be here for you baby.

I wish you all the happiness in life. You deserve it and don't you ever dare to doubt that!

Lastly, I am not angry at you, so don't ever blame yourself for anything that happened yesterday night.

Take care of yourself baby.
-Your Eunwoo♡

He puts the note on the dining table, grabs his documents from the locker and walks out of the door as well as of Jimin's life.
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So here's a special chapter from Eunwoo's POV because he was screaming at me to tell his side of story to y'all. So here it is!

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