Behind the Facade// DDLC FANFIC

Lingering Thoughts

*Monika*
I hum to myself while staring at my ceiling. Nothing is real, is it? Everybody and everything is fake. J don't feel real as I slowly lose my sense of reality. I play the scene of when Sayori catches me. I name it "Rejection.01mov." As there are many more to come. Anything to have MC to myself.

--"Rejection.01mov"  ---> Sayoris Head (loop)--

Everything glitches and static plays in my head, getting slowly louder. It stops and I feel something drop in the atmosphere. I go to the bathroom after opening my bedroom door and here my mother screaming at my dad on thr phone. She's crying and sobbing and full of rage. I stare at the mirror and I can't see myself. Who am I? I wonder. The lingering thought that nothing is real and my efforts are pointless haunts me.  I close  my tearful eyes

(("Dad" ---> "Asphyxia"))

"Honey! What's wrong?! Oh god, I'm calling the ambulance!!" My mother shrieked, rushing to the living room telephone and dialing his nearest hospital. I smile as my mother screams on the phone and I go back to bed. The weight on me feels less and I sleep easily. The next morning was surprisingly a Monday, meaning school. My uniform has red marks on it, right where my arms are. The weather is gloomy and I feel miserable. My mother has been whispering to herself and rocking in her bed all night. But when I go to school, she'd probably be at the hospital looking after him.
It's surprising. A man who ruined her life at a young age still has a place in her heart. I hope to give her a painless death.

"Monika! Did you know MC is in our form?!" Yuri comes up to me, blushing brightly. I smile back and hold her hand. "That's nice. Let's go say hi to him." I have guilt in me, for feeling such hated towards Yuri. She's never been social, and maybe MC should be her true love. But I couldn't stand it, I couldn't watch it. MC waves to us and he gives me a menacing smile. I come close to him and hold his hand. "Hi Yuri..Hi Monika." Yuri looks to me and looks to him. I stare at her soul with malice and I can't help but smile.
"A cupcake anyone?" Natsuki comes holding a small cupcake container and it has velvet and vanilla cupcakes. I quickly take one and stuff it into my mouth. These meds make eating so hard, this is my first piece of food in a week and 3 days. Natsuki stares at me with concernmbut quickly turns to MC and smiles cutely. "Here's one especially for you, new membership prizes!" She said sarcastically. She handed him the cupcake and he slowly ate it. "Wow! This is amazing! Did you learn these skills from our schools cooking club?" He said in amazement, and she nodded quickly.
I feel embarrassed, ashamed. There's nothing wrong with this. Why do i have to adjust everything to be my way, with only a slight remorse?

"It's because yohr a sociopath Monika. Your too self aware for you own reality."
I sigh, before wiping MC's lips. "Icing." I like my finger and smile at him. He smiles back and looks flustered. I walk off towards the cooking club and look at the list. It's around this sketchy part inside the school, but before i can hate on it the owner comes in.
"Oh, monika." She hisses. I call her nerdy, but her real name is Kazu. I wave to her and she slaps my hand down. "What brings a person like you here. Around knifes."
"Your still mad because I tried to stab you and blackmailed you with multiple things so you wouldn't tell?!" I gasped sarcastically and she started getting angry.
"Whatever your here for, I'm not helping." She tried to close the area off but I grabbed her right on her wrist. My nails digged into her veins and she quickly started to shake me off and she nearly cried but i covered her mouth.
"Oh, it's just that Natsuki said some rough stuff about you."
"I don't believe you!" She yelled out as I let go off her  hand and blood leaves violently out of her skin
"Then why did she cross her name out the list??"
"What?" Nerdy says, as she turned to the list and looks hurt. "What did she say?!"
I smiles deviously and blew the blood off my nails.

"She said how your bakes smell raw, and how your so unsocial and creepy, and can't take care of your hair properly." I said in the most sympathetic way I could. Nerdy put her head down and started sniffling. "She was my only true friend..how could she?!"
"Natsuki isn't to be trusted. Atleast she isn't a problem now since she already kicked herself out the club." I smile and put my hand on her shoulder. "It isn't you, it's her."

She smiles lightly at me, and I smile back. "Here's a cupcake aswell." I say, handing her one and leaving.
"Wait!" She calls out, snd I turn around. Her face is covered in tears and she's scared. "Why did you tell me?!"
I mumbled, "Your welcome.",  smile and keep walking.

MASSIVE TW:

*Natsukis POV (Next day)*

"NATSUKI WAKE UP! DUMB B!TCH!"
I wake up in a cold sweat and everywhere is dark and I could here glass beer bottled shatter on the ground violently. My heart beats and i try to find out where I am. "YOU LITTLE SLVT WAKE UP! ILL BEAT YOU RIGHT NOW!!" His footsteps grew closer and I started crying. He was so drunk, I couldn't stare him in the face.
"You..y-you promised me...." I sob into my hands and he stops coming nearer to the door. He shoves down something and it leaves a lingering echo of the shatter. I watch his shadow go away and I finally exhale.

In the shower I can't help but cry. I wash my face and I stare blankly as the water runs down my face. Its stupid, really. How I hide all my pain with a silly baking club and some basic cooking skills. I want to be a Baker when in older. I want to bake for people, to make them feel better. That's what baking did for me atleast.

*FLASH BACK- NATSUKIS PAST*

"Darling!~ Cupcakes are ready!"
"Yes mom!" Natsuki rushed into the dining room and smelled the sweet pastries her mother made. She started jumping up and squealing as her mother silenced her.
"I hear something, anyway take the ones you want!" Her mom rushed to the door, and alot of  bangs from the door. Natsuki peeped her head to see what was going on, but her mom signalled for her to stay in.
"AKARI, OPEN THE FVCKING DOOR! YOU CANT LEAVE ME THIS EASILY!!"
Natsuki was scared and closed her ears and her mother went to the dining room door. "Eat your cupcakes. It's okay! It's just a big bad wolf!" Her mother smiled wearily before shutting the door quickly. The bangs got louder, until screams filled the house. Natsuki started crying with a mouthful of cake and she started choking on the cupcake. She was hysterical on the floor but her mother couldn't hear her. She eventually coughed it out and was weak on the floor.
Tears filled her swelled eyes and the screaming just got louder, until she heard a big bang and everything went silent.
Her mother came in, covered in blood.

*NATSUKIS PRESENT POV*

I went straight to the baking club in a hurry, wiping all my tears and covering all my bruise marks. "Sorry Kazu, just another day at home-"
Kazu stared bitterly at me, and the other club members didn't even acknowledge my presence. I thought something bad happened to the club, since the school was threatening to shut down the club due to costs and what not. "Did they close down the club?!" I exclaimed, and Kazu started tearing up. Everybody else scoffed and went back to cleaning equipment and other things.
"Are you here to mock us, Natsuki?!" Kazu yelled out, pushing me away.  She bowed her down and her face was twitching with tears. I was so confused?..

"What! Of course not! I love this club.." I stammer, taken back by this accusation. Baking is my life!
"Well you already crossed your name out. Youve said everything mean about me, Now go!" Kazu screamed at me. Her face covered in tears. I never crossed my name out! And I never said anything mean!?

"Kazu, I would never do that! Somebodys done this I promise!" I started to tear up and she just stared at me with hatred. "Please, Kazu?!"

"GO AWAY!!" She roared at me and her face was covered in disgust. She walked off and started cleaning  things. Everybody shrugged at me and turned away. I started to cry and I ran off wiping my tears as quickly as I could. I ran into a bathroom stall and started sobbing silently. The only thing that makes me feel save, baking, has been taken away from me. I wonder who would ever do this to me...who would frame me!

My stomach churns with sadness and betrayal. I feel numb.