Behind the Facade// DDLC FANFIC

Loving You Forever

TW: Suicide, intense angst, depression, ptsd flashbacks, abuse, fluff/lemon

SAYORIS POV

I find myself in my bedroom crying in my pillow which im holding with my small fingers and the wetness of the pillow rubs against my face.  The heat from my cheeks hurt after my mom slapped me hard across the face. I hear the loudness of her voice, and I was worried she would kill me. She nearly killed dad. 
I held him tightly in my arms as he bled out, and I realised he wouldn't come back. He divorced mom and I couldn't see her the same again. I was only 13.  I ran from home when I was 15 but the police caught me. I moved out as soon as I became 18. I didn't even wait for the morning.

Right now, I'm running my hands through my hair and crying silently. I can't help but crave MC's touch, and I finally give in. I take a shower after days and go to his house. KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!!! I knock the door quickly, looking around. He opens the door sleepily and smiles but I lean in and hold his cheeks while kissing his lips. He quickly jolts and I can feel his eyes still open and his warm cheeks. Finally he closed them after he closed the door shut. We broke off and he looked at me dazed. "Sayori what the fuck is going o-" I put my finger to his lips and shushed him. I hug him tightly and he sighs whilst holding me to.  We go and sit on the couch and he sighs. He's in a T-shirt and his hair is ruffled and his breathing heavily. I try to kiss him again put he puts his hands out and touches my boobs and I immediately blush. I go back and cross my arms a bit embarassed. "Why are you here sayori." He says bitterly, and turns to me.

I stammer a bit and sigh, smiling innocently. "I missed you, is it a crime to miss somebody as unforgettable as you?" I try to lean in but he turns away. "Oh cmon, what's your deal MC?" I say shakily. I hope he isn't in anything committed to Monika..
"What are you really here for. I'm not dumb Sayori." He sighs, and pushes me away.
"You are really dumb you jerk. I'm here for you, now can I show you how much I'm here for you?" I lean in to kiss him, and when he leans forward and kisses me I realise he finally gave in. I hold his shoulders whilst i'm riding on his lap and we break off. I tease him gently whilst he holds my hips and smiles at me. He looks like he is so high out of his mind, but he's just so tired. 

He kiss my neck and I start moaning out. I grip on his shoulders whilst I moan out. He stops and bites my neck instead. I fake moan to piss him off and he holds my chin and shakes my head. I'm secretly inlove with this, but play it off. I lay my head on his shoulders and giggle with him. I stare out to the big window in his living room right beside his door, to see something blurry. Green eyes and hazel brown hair in a ponytail that slowly goes down. I see her young face covered in blood.
"I had to do it Sayori...dont tell anybody."

Fright hits me and I stand up quickly. MC looks at me confuesed and I stammer. "Sayori. This is exactly why I asked why you were here!" He yells out, angrily. I stare to the window, my eyes swelling with tears. "LOOK AT ME YOU FUCKING-" I don't let him continue his sentence and yell, "I still love you, MC!" shakily, and begin to run out of the living room. I bang on the door and try to open it. I barge it open and rush out of the house. I turn behind me to see Monika with her hair down and a large knife in her hand. "Come here Sayori. I just want to talk." She's walking slowly and she seems completely insane. Her heads twitching and I know she's lost it. 
"I thought everything you saw was an enough warning. I don't think you can listen to instructions, can you?" She says without any tone in her voice. "This is why you came to school with cigarette burns from your own mother."  I completely freeze.

"No, that was from YOU always becoming competition for me." I scream out, but she is about come up to me and I start running forward crying.
"Cause you were never enough, don't you get it?" 

I turn to her, with my face covered in tears. "I was enough, stop lying!"
"No you weren't, and if you were, why hasn't MC left me? He already kissed me this morning, and more. Its 4pm, why do you thinks he's still "tired"?"

I finally realise, and I start running straight to my house. I was completely distraught by the emptiness of the streets. Bystanders watched without thinking, and soon enough completely ignored the situation. I made it to my house and locked the door. The bangs from her stone hard fist sent shivers up my spine. I ran up to my bedroom and started sobbing. "OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR SAYORI! You messed up, you knew what you had to do to live." 
I get the rope from underneath my bed. I won't let her kill me, I won't.

She shoves her knife into my door and glass shatters. "OPEN THE DOOR BEFORE I COME THERE MYSELF." I start screaming and crying whilst quickly tying the noose. "IM WARNING YOU TO OPEN THIS FUCKING DOOR SAYORI I AM NOT JOKING." She screams manically whilst im putting the chair underneath the noose connected to my ceiling fan.  More glass shatters and I lock the door shut. She starts ramaging through my house, breaking down everything. I put my head through the noose and I realise, this is the..end. I gasp for air, hold my breathe as tears flow down my face. "I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU SAYORI." snap. I tighten the noose and it's so tight, it makes a snapping sound. I exhale and kick the chair. Everything becomes static, even the sounds. I start loosing conciousness, and I look infront of me as my eyes nearly shut.

"You were enough Sayori. I'll be loving you, forever." He says. His loving smile assures me, and I finally close my eyes. It's been a few minutes, and I finally give up.
"Goodnight."